My Love

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Y/n POV:
It has been a couple months.. my leg is completely healed.. the sky people have come for a visit.. Clarke and Lexa are now hunting.. Lexa didn't want me to come because it was "dangerous". We are on this again.. I'm under her protection and I'm stuck here. She's been a little harsh on me but I just push it to the back of my head.. Titus is another one of my problems. He keeps giving me and Clarke dirty looks.. I don't care though. He did threaten me a few days later though. I haven't told Lexa though..

"Y/n did you hear what I said?" Raven asks shaking me..

"Sorry could you repeat that again.. I won't listening." I say looking at her..

"I said that Lexa and Clarke are back they are injured" she says getting up.. I quickly jump off my seat heading to the gates.. Clarke walks in with Lexa holding onto her in pain..

"What happened?!"I ask helping Lexa by putting an arm around her..

"We where attacked by a hungry gorilla. Lexa's injured we need to help her." Clarke says..

One of Lexa's warriors come in and helped Lexa to Nyko's tent..

"Here Lexa let me help-" she cuts me off

"Im fine y/n" she says harshly..

I swallowed the lump in my throat and nod stepping back..

"Ill help her y/n don't worry just go." Clarke says..

I blinked and nodded walking out of the tent.. I think I know the reason why she's being harsh on me again.. I walk back to the tower and I'm greeted by Titus..

"Titus.." I say..

He glares down at me and pushes past me bumping his shoulder on mine..

"Nice seeing you too." I say rolling my eyes

"What happened?" Raven asks sitting down beside me as I stare out of the window..

"They where attacked by a gorilla.. I tried to help Lexa but she just pushed me away.. Clarke went in and helped but she didn't push Clarke away.. is there something going on between them..?" I ask looking at Raven..

"I-i don't know.." Raven responds..

"Raven I think I like Lexa.." I blurted out.. Raven looks up with wide eyes

"Y/n thats- oh my- Jesus what?!" She says shocked

"I like Lexa but I'm scared she won't feel the same way as I do." I say sitting down on the couch

"Of course she likes you back y/n! Do you see the way she looks at you!?" Raven says

"Do you see the way she looks at Clarke though.." I say

"Don't worry about Clarke! Spill the beans on her, tell her how you feel!" Raven says

"Okay..okay I will.." I say sighing..

"Do it now!" Raven says pushing me off the room..

"Okay okay I'm going!" I say looking back at Raven..

I walk out of the tower and head to Nyko's tent.. I open the flap and saw Lexa standing up really close the Clarke.. they see me and immediately parted ways..

"Y/n.. what are you doing here?" Lexa asks looking at me..

"I-i came to tell you something but.. forget it.. its nothing important." I say walking out of the tent.. Lexa follows behind calling my name..

"Y/n tell me what you needed to tell me." Lexa says.

I keep walking towards the tower with Lexa still following behind..

"Can you stop following me." I say..

"Not until you tell me what you needed to tell me." She says..

After we entered the tower Lexa grabs my wrist and turns me around looking at me.. she frowns as she sees a tear roll down my cheek.. she tries to wipe it away but I move back

"Y/n tell me whats wrong.. why are you crying?" She asks

"You really don't know do you.." I say looking up at her.. she shakes her head looking down at me..

"Tell me what's going-" I cut her off..

"You're asking me what's wrong? Lexa what is wrong is that you've been avoiding me! You just started avoiding me out of nowhere! Every time I try to help you push me away like I did something wrong!" I yell out.

"Y/n I'm sorry I-"

"Damn you Lexa! Can't you see!" I yell out

"See what y/n!" She responds

"Of course you can't see! You're so stupidly blinded by Clarke's love you can't even tell that I-" I stopped mid sentence looking at her..

"You what y/n.. tell me.." She says

"It doesn't matter." I say before walking away..

I can't tell her.. not now not ever.. I'm so stupid for thinking she would like me.. gosh I don't even like her I love her! I've been sitting on this stupid balcony for at least an hour now.. just staring down at Polis.. what's the point of me even being here.. a knock was on my door.. I sigh and wiped a tear off my cheek.. I got up and walked to the door twisting the knob to reveal Lexa with a plate of food.

"Im not hungry." I say shutting the door on her face..

"Y/n" I hear her call out through the door.. I don't respond. I just lay down on my bed staring at the ceiling..

"Y/n can we talk" I hear her say..

"Go away." I respond..

"Y/n open up" Lexa says..

"Go away commander I'm not in the mood of your stupid games." I say leaning up again..

You don't understand how mad I am.. I hear more knocks on my door.

"You never call me commander." Lexa says through the door.

"That's what you are aren't you? The commander." I respond.

"Open up" Lexa says banging on the door now

"Can you stop it!" I yell out frustrated..

"I won't stop until you open this door" she says..

I groan and got up opening the door to see her empty handed. She pushes through and walks in.

"Did I say you can come in?" I say turning to look at her.

She had a bandage around her shoulder and a busted lip.

"What do you need?" I ask closing the door sighing loud..

"We need to talk." She spoke..

"There is nothing me need to talk about" I say

"There is many stuff we need to talk about." She says

"Not really." I say walking over to the bed sitting down

"Im sorry for the way I've been treating you." She says

"Look I'm tired and I don't want to talk about this right now. I don't care if you're sorry or not just please leave me alone. I've been through enough today." I say

She shakes her head and looks at me.. I groan and threw myself back on the bed.

"Im not blinded by Clarke's love y/n" she says

I shrug and looked at her

"Kay." I respond..

"What where you going to say.. before you stopped the sentence.." She says..

"Its nothing important" I respond looking up at the ceiling..

"Can you just tell me?" She asks.. I sigh and lean up on my elbows to see her with her hands resting behind her back..

"No Commander I can't tell you." I say.

She lets out a loud sigh and walks out of the room.. I stare at the door and lay down falling asleep for a couple hours..
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