you realize that you had been dozing off for the time you've been thinking about kageyama, you find yourself with teary eyes and shaky hands because of the trauma he put you through. akaashi notices and says " y/n are you okay!? what's wrong?! " " o-oh i'm fine d-don't worry about it". " no, no i told you that i'd be here for you and i wasn't lying, tell me what's wrong you know you can tell me anything! " akaashi says with a worried expression, " i-it's just kageyama thats it.. i'm sorry " you start letting your tears out and akaashi hugs you tightly letting you know that's you're safe in his arms. * time skip ( end of school day ) *. you go home and think to yourself about what happened with kageyama again, you start crying into your pillow, you remember that you have your blade in the drawer on the side of your bed, you grab it and press it down into your skin until you're sure it'll make you bleed.
akaashis eyes start to tear up realizing what you did to yourself " y-y/n.. why? " he says as a warm tear drops from his right cheek onto the ground
you lay down while akaashi is in the bathroom thinking to himself " oh my god. why would she do that do herself? " he looks to see something metal and he picks it up and realizes it was the what you used to h&rm yourself. he broke it into peices and lets out a few tears but managed to walk out without looking like he was ever crying. he walks out to see you tracing your finger along your arm and he says "hey y/n. um.. kuroo is throwing a party tomorrow night i was wondering if you'd like to go with me? " " o-oh of c-course i'll go with you. " you smile hesitantly as if you didn't want to go with him but you knew you did, you think to yourself, " did akaashi really just ask me to go to a party with him? " your eyes light up as you're excited to go to the party.. but then you realize.. " if fukurōdani academy is invited than that means.. karasuno is going to be there which means kageyama will be too
as you think about kageyama again akaashi sees your eyes getting teary and holds you and wipes your tears away with his soft hands " it's okay, it's okay, your safe with me and you can let it out. " you buried your head into akaashis chest as he runs his fingers through your hair, you soon fall asleep in this position and you're still in youre uniform which looks uncomfortable he takes off your shirt (without looking ofc) and puts his hoddie on you and lays you in a comfortable position. * time skip (one hour) * you wake up to akaashi sleeping peace fully on the ground wishing he laid in bed with you
