You're making things worse for me.. Why? (Harry styles) #wattys2015

part 6

-ALEXA-

''lexi'' mum called out to me i didnt have enough strengh to answer back thats when she unlocked my door with a key she kept and came into the bathroom where i was laying on the floor blood pouring out my wrists ''lexi what have you done'' she shouted to me i couldnt answer back because i was crying so much

''oh baby come here'' she said placing a towel on my cuts and hugging me close ''its going to be alright'' she told me kissing me on the forehead.

it took awhile for me to come around and stop crying and when i did mum took me to the hospital to get my cuts checked out..she kept asking me question.. ''why didnt you tell me you felt the need to cut again?'' she asked once we got back home ''i was scared.. so scared'' i told her crying into her shoulders

she held me up and i held on to her, she carried me up to my bedroom and placed me in bed ''you're not going to school tomorrow. get some sleep'' she told me closing my bedroom door.

i layed there for ages thinking about life.. why did i do this? i could of just spoke to my mum about my bullying.

-HARRY-

so last night.. wow i didnt mean to stand alexa up i was actually sorry but when she had ago at me the bitchy ness came out in her. the little slut thinks she can shout at me and get away with it well shes got another thing coming.

i got out of bed, showered and put on my uniform i got to school and waited by alexas locker and she didnt come at the time she normally does then i see her friend katy? i think thats her name ''wheres alexa?'' i asked her walking towards her ''shes not coming in today'' she said walking away from me

''why not?'' i asked ''she had a bad night last night'' is all katy said before walking away.. is she not coming in because of me? the fucking slut.

''hey wheres slut'' ben said coming up to me ''not in today apparently'' i said laughing ''the little bitch'' i heard cara say ''whats your problem with her?'' i asked ''shes just a little slut, she thinks shes so smart and shes so hot but shes not any of them. shes just a dumb bitch'' cara said

we all laughed and walked to our lesson.

-ALEXA-

i was at home today.. my mum wouldnt let me go to school because the mess im in. i texted katy and told her i wont be in but she didnt know why i just told her i had a bad night and wasnt really feeling ok she completely understood.

it was around 4pm mum was at work but peter was home, i had a tank top on showing my scars because no one was going to see them when in in my own house ''lexi'' peter shouted i just thought he was calling me down for some food so i didnt bother putting a jacket on

i was down the stairs and peter was standing at the door with katy next to him, katy looked at the bandage on my arm with a shocked face i quickly run upstairs

''lex?'' she asked walking into my room ''what have you done'' she asked sitting in bed next to me, i just burst into tears ''i-i-'' i couldnt get any words out ''you could of spoke to me'' she said handing my arm up ''you didnt have to do this''

she was right, i could of spoke to her and i didnt have to do this but it was too late now wasn't it. way too late.

''why?'' she asked me so i told her. i told her everything. ''that fucking cunt, how dare he'' she said ''just leave it, if we make a big drama about this everyone will know i cut and i'll get bullied even more and this time i dont know how far i would go'' i stated.

-HARRY-

i was driving past alexas house and i felt the urge to knock on her door and apologise, i parked my car outside her house and knocked. some man answered must of been her dad ''is alexa here?'' i asked ''who are you?'' he asked me ''my names harry, i go to school with alexa.. just coming to see how she is because i didnt see her in school today'' i replied

''hold on a second'' he said closing the door he came back 5 minutes later ''sorry she doesnt want to see anyone'' he told me ''oh ok'' i replied walking away i looked up at the window and see katy there looking out giving me an evil look.. what was her problem?

i started my car and someone opened the passenger door ''how fucking could you'' she said ''what?'' i asked confused ''you fucking bully her then take her out for a meal and basically humliliate her'' she shouted wow this girl is angry

''i-i'' i couldnt finish what i was saying because alexa came out with an over sized jumper on with jogger bottoms, her hair in a bun. she looked a mess, her eyes didnt even look the same. she looked like she had been crying.

''katy stop'' alexa shouted grabbing katy by her hoodie ''just leave it'' she said with hardly an tone in her voice ''no this cunt of a boy humiliated you'' katy shouted ''i never even wanted to go to dinner with the slut, i only done it because i felt bad'' i said ''the girls a slut and always will be'' i said

i looked at alexa who had tears in her eyes.. she looked at me and run inside ''fuck you'' katy shouted slamming the passenger door shut.

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