Trigger warning!
Mentions of self-harm
I managed to distract myself throughout the entire day, so I actually ended up not hurting myself. I'm still thinking about it tho. I actually think a lot about it. Every day, many times. Sometimes I end up doing it but sometimes I just don't feel like it. Like today. I actually kinda wanted to do it but it maybe wouldn't be that satisfying because I'm not 100% sure on what I'm doing. And then I'll be disappointed so I'll just wait, till the trigger is high enough.
Maybe there'll be a situation tomorrow where my anger issues are going to be triggered. That's actually good because I'll get more satisfying results when I'm really mad.
Is that weak? Probably.
Not being able to feel alive is pathetic and having to hurt yourself because you can't deal with your own thoughts or anger is weak.
Really weak. But we all already know that I am weak and that'll never improve.
- 4th March 2021
- Joe
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Just my mind
RandomHeyyo, I hope you're doing alright. Glad, you landed here.. You can refer to me with the name Joe. My mind can be a pretty messed up place sometimes and my thoughts are too much for myself sometimes, so I thought I might share them. If you're inter...
