Run || Bertholdt Hoover x Reader

Run. Part Three.

New chapter! I've decided this will probably be around 5 chapters? Feed back is loved so I hope you guys enjoy this!

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Staring at the steam coming off of Bertholdt's hand your mind was racing. You were still trying to come to terms with how close to death you were. If Bertholdt had stepped in one second later you would be dead right now and nothing you'd ever done would have mattered. You wouldn't be standing here at all, you'd have been just another casualty of the titans and no one left alive would care. The scouts already thought you dead and Bertholdt had already left you behind, there was no way he could have expected you to follow him.

Tears started to fall in waves as you wrapped your arms around yourself. You wished you could reach out and hold him but you couldn't, you couldn't face what he was yet. It was stupid, you'd come out here knowing that. You'd come out here to talk to him and hear what he had to say but you couldn't even reach out to him right now. That made the tears fall harder, your body shake even more. Why did you even come out here if you were just going to act like this? If you couldn't face him you should have taken your chance back with the MP's.

"We have to get back up there. We can't stay on the ground here for too long, we'll interrogate her when we're safe." Interrogate. You were a threat right now, you weren't anything but that and Reiner was very clear about that.

A harsh sob left you and you felt a hand on your shoulders, "Shh no you have to be quiet y/n." Bertholdt. "We have to get up the wall, it's too dangerous down here. Just... hold onto me okay?" You managed to stop the sobs and let him hold onto you and use the ODM gear to climb the wall. The titan's body was gone by now, turned to steam but you still stared. It was easier staring at that than looking at Bertholdts missing hand or the ODM gear you knew he only got from eating one of the other Scouts.

When you were safely atop the wall he let you go, he stepped back but kept his eyes on you. Watching you wearily as if he was waiting for something to happen, for you to make a move. You'd never seen him look at you like this before, like if you made one wrong move he'd do whatever it took to stop you. And you knew he would, everything in you was telling you that he could hurt you, would if he had to. But the part of you that followed him was still inside you, reminding you that you loved him enough to leave everything behind. To betray your friends and comrades.

His eyes though, more than being on you were on Reiner. He was the one glaring, he'd been the one to say they'd interrogate you. Bertholdt might have been worried about what you would do but it was clear he was even more afraid of what his friend would do. The pair of them looked at you as you stood pathetically in front of them, clothes stained in blood, still catching your breath and your face red from crying. If it was any other situation you'd have felt embarrassed to be seen like this, especially by Bertholdt. But you couldn't bring yourself to care, you'd risked everything to get here, to see him again. You knew there would be a chance that you came here only to die. You'd accepted that.

"Oh this is priceless" Ymir was standing behind the two of them not even trying to hide her amusement. "Y/N followed you out here? Who knew you had so much game?" His face heat up and he turned away from the smirking woman who was walking towards the three of you.

"We don't know that." Reiner's voice stopped her from continuing. "They could have been sent by the scouts to find us." His tone made you wince but you could understand his caution. Looking to Bertholdt you wanted him to say something, voice that you wouldn't have done that, but he was stills silent. Hiding in himself like he used to around you. You'd hoped he'd at least understand why you followed, maybe he was too afraid to have hope.

Ymir looked at you for a moment, you could see that she wanted to say something but she didn't, maybe she too understood why he was being cautious. But it didn't help you, you still wanted to yell at him and tell him that you were the one who should be afraid. The three of them could turn into titans, he and Bertholdt had killed countless people. You were one person, even if you lead the Scouts here what could they really do this deep into titan territory? They'd lost countless just as far as they had gone. Going any further would have been suicide.