Hi there I would like to start off by saying thank you for opening this, honestly I'm writing this so it doesn't have to be stuck in my head. I've been writing poems and journal-ing since I was about 11.
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Mercy
Please have mercy on me
This pain within me
It's deep within me
Scarred and shattered within me.
Oh please dear God up above,
light up my heart, heal my soul
Please have mercy on me
I feel this deep, dark cloud of despair
It hangs over my mind like a cloud heavy with rain,
Its darkness flows and carves out my happiness in the same way water carves through the dry earth.
Oh God! Please have mercy on me, the pain runs so deep!
I cry and no one hears me
I scream and no one hears me
The years weigh on and on, on my shoulders -on my soul and I cry each new day...I cry out to God asking why He didn't just take me to another place.
Please have mercy on me
I'm so young, not a frown line to show how the years have carved away my happiness but yet when I envision my future-i see none and smile.
Oh God!Please have mercy
These thoughts race through my brain,
I'm told to be grateful
I'm told I am blessed
Im told I'm to young to have anything of substance weighing on my chest!
But God!
Please have mercy
I wake each new days, 11 years since the first time I tried to hurry this miserable existence along
Be it pills or lashes, the pain can never leave , it lingers, it laughs, it mocks me.
I'm weak but people tell me to be strong
And I'm broke and no glue will hold
And I'm sad, so so sad...I shouldn't be ,I should try to be happy
"You're young and smart you'll go far!"
The only place I want to go is off a high cliff edge
Oh God!
Please have mercy on me
I weep while they sleep
The pain and my burden is for me to keep,
they hush me
And shush me
Tell me to give a smile
To pretend
To no end
But if I could I'd end the day before it began.
Oh the freedom I could have, to float away into a peaceful summer nights dream, to fell the soft caresses of midnight angels.
Oh freedom what I would give to meet you
I want to be free on this heartache and pain, the despair, the trouble, the disappointment, the disillusioned, the soft and fragile
I wish to live, oh more than anything, I want to feel anything other than this black hole inside.
The deep strings of this feeling drip and ooz into my chest beating
wildly, it's so thick and heavy like sitting in tar.
It's chemicals erode all that was once good and innocent and pure,
the heat brands your soul,
the smell reminds you of your every impending debt to be paid in full.
Oh God! I beg. I pray. Please have mercy on me today.
