𝟑𝟎 𝐃𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐃𝐞𝐚𝐥

~~ 53. ~~

"A real punishment Bayo. It's difficult waking up every morning seeing her and I can't embrace her, I can tell how I feel about her or even touch her. I hate that I am lying about what I truly feel. I feel like I am been punished." Bayo just glanced at him without saying anything. He knew he was hurting but he didn't think it was as much as that.

He was feeling something big for Lola and denying it is not in his favour.

"It's so hard to have a feeling that you keep denying but instead it is getting stronger. I actually didn't plan to have any feelings for Lola. She was the last person I expect to have any feelings for. But that happens to be the case now.

"She affects me a whole lot. Everything just seems easy, beautiful... and alive when she is around me. Even my walls seem to crumble with just one look from her. I'm always happy when I am with her, you know. And the way I miss her when she isn't around.... ". He shakes his head."I can't explain. I want her around all the time and I don't want her to because she is making me break my rules all the time. I can't even think straight when she is around. Do you ever felt that way?" He asked his friend.

"More than you can ever imagine. I told you when I met Helen everything changed. What I thought, how I felt, what I do... Everything changes when I met her. I even become the best part of myself because of her. It's not.... odd Demmy that you feel that way. In fact, I'm glad you can feel that way for someone again. "

"To be honest, I didn't feel this way towards Angela. I thought I was crazy about her but it is nothing close to the craziness Lola is making me feel. My brain goes numb when she is around. I become another version of myself. I just want to see her smile even if at times it is most oddly. I tried to go against my heart sometimes. I just say things to piss her off or to annoy her. But I will turn out to be the one to regret it the most. I just realized what Uche said, Angela was an obsession not love. What I am feeling now is so different from what I have ever felt. I think I love her, Bayo. I love Lola. And it's a bit scary because I don't need another heartbreak."

"I understand you, Demmy. And I can tell how Lola is very important to you."

"She is not important. She is... precious to me." He corrected him and that left Bayo stunned. He didn't expect that. 'I'm afraid of losing her Bayo." He paused. "I want her to go. And probably all this craziness will go. But I don't want to lose her either. It's just so hard and confusing. It's like I will lose something precious when she goes. And I am not ready for that loss."

"That's why you prolonged the deal right?" He asked.

He replied with a shake of his head. "Yes."

"Then you should not let her go. Do something, Demmy. Say something to her. You will regret it if you let her go without saying anything. This vacation can be the only opportunity you have. There is nothing you will do that will make her stay after the vacation unless you tell her how you feel. "

"What if...."

"No what if. You let the fear of what might not happen to keep you from doing what you should. If you are so afraid of falling when you have not even jumped, when will you ever jump? Just believe in yourself. If she is what you want, go for it. And if she is meant for you, she will be yours. Give yourself a chance to be a happy friend. You can never tell... she might like you too. "

Demilade chuckled.

"I don't know about that. But hopefully."

"Don't lose hope. Which girl in her right mind will ever reject someone like you? A whole Demilade Ninalowo. I don't think there is any." And they're both laughed.

"Stop flattering me." And they both laughed.

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