➯ 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐒𝐖𝐀𝐍 -〚𝒀𝑶𝑰 𝒙 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓〛

➯ ʀᴏsᴛᴇʟᴇϲᴏᴍ ϲᴜᴘ !! 𝙪𝙣𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙙𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡

UGH, what am i thinking? she's not gonna come. i basically told her i hated her, and i'm pretty sure she hates me now too, if she didn't already before.

so whatever, just skate the routine like you have a million times before. 

and here i thought i would be able to perfect it with her...

i get to the rink and look up at lilia and yakov waiting for me.

"there you are! are you ready? you're about to go next."

"tch. yes, whatever. i'm ready okay??" lilia and yakov give each other a knowing look.

i unzip my jacket and sigh.

why the hell are my hands shaking?? this never happens.

lilia and yakov start giving me last minute advice and pep talks, but their voices seem to muffle out.

my mind and eyes wander elsewhere as i start to scan the crowds looking for her.

dammit, you know she's not here! 

calm down...

calm down!

' 𝒄𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒌! '

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『𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙥𝙤𝙫 』

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i run into the building, pushing past dozens of people and cameras.

i hear the announcer from the rink, slightly muffled. 

' and now welcoming 15 year old yuri plisetsky, performing in his old hometown! he is skating to in regards to love: agape, choreographed by victor nikiforov! '

FUCK! he's about to start!

ugh, why am i even trying so hard to make it? i doubt he even cares if i'm watching or not, i mean he said it himself.

not that i blame him...

but after talking to nikolai yesterday, i have to see him!

i race down the hallway, and pull the doors open to the rink, just in time to hear the music start.

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his appearance is beautiful... and his movements are graceful... but underneath it's obvious he isn't focused at all.

he looks frustrated... and sad...

yurio, hang in there...

his performance finishes, and the crowd goes wild. his fangirls cheering exceptionally loud. 

he exits the rink, and i'm about to run up to congratulate him, but i stop myself.

i'm the last person he wants to see right now... remember?

i pull my hood up and try to sneak my way past to yuuri, since he's performing next.

not to mention i'll also give him an earful about letting me sleep in...

i see JJ go up to talk to yurio.