Scars

Chapter 13

Without hesitations, Xiao Zhan's lips came down on his. Yibo was just about to part his mouth and close his eyes when Xiao Zhan had brushed his lips into Yibo's once, then pulled up again.

"Xiao Zhan." He tugged on his hands. "More."

"No. No yet."

"What?!" Yibo exclaimed, eyes wide.

"That's your punishment for being dumb." Xiao Zhan chuckled darkly.

"What? Why?" Yibo tried to free his hands. "Why even?" Yibo snickered. He's not happy about this. "I'm not some kind of sub. Why would you punish me?"

"A sub?" Xiao Zhan raised a curious brow. "Why would you know about those things, Yibo?" He clucked his tongue mockingly.

"We don't live in a cave. We have internet." Yibo tried to shake off his hold. He looks disappointed. "And I'm old enough to know things like that. I'm not a baby. "

"Yes, you are." Xiao Zhan adjusted his hands back on Yibo's wrists. "You're my baby." He grinned widely at Yibo. "Daddy kink, remember?"

"So annoying, laoshi!" Yibo scrunched up his face at the old joke he made being thrown back at him. "Kiss me!" When Xiao Zhan only pecked at his cheek, Yibo tried to capture his lips. "Xiao Zhan!" Yibo lifted his head as much as Xiao Zhan's grip would allow, he went after his mouth. "Why won't you kiss me?"

Because he couldn't. Not when he was lying to Yibo about something. They've held it back so much, now Xiao Zhan felt like it had to happen when everything else is settled. At least when he isn't in the middle of lying to Yibo. And he was even lying about his father. Xiao Zhan wants things like this to be special for Yibo. He wants to make it very real. No lies. Like their feelings, that he knows, are budding between them. Real.

"Are you gonna make me beg?" Yibo pouted.

"What? No." Xiao Zhan gave a lop-sided grin. He kissed the tip of Yibo's nose. "You trust me?" He asked despite knowing Yibo had complete trust in him, and knowing that he was betraying that trust by lying.

"You know I do."

"Then trust me with this one." Xiao Zhan lowered Yibo's hands to the sides of his head. He let his fingers crawl over Yibo's palms, again clasping their hands tight. "Trust me when I say not yet."

Weighing his words, Yibo blinked up at him. He nodded then. "Okay."

"Hmn." Xiao Zhan squeezed on Yibo's hands, tracing small kisses up Yibo's jaw, stopping just under his ear. "That 'not yet' doesn't mean I like you less." The last thing Xiao Zhan would want is for Yibo to misunderstand him. "I was kidding when I said it's your punishment for being dumb." He flicked his tongue on Yibo's earlobe then sipped on it. "That "not yet' is because I like you... Very much."

"Okay." Yibo said again when Xiao Zhan lifted his head to look at him. He had nothing else to say. If he tries to speak, he might tell Xiao Zhan something stupid out of impulse... Like how he's already in love with him.

Xiao Zhan flashed him that smile, one that could stop time. "You're so good for me, Yibo." Xiao Zhan gave him a quick kiss.

Hmn. Alright. He is deeply, head-over-heels, in love with Xiao Zhan. But of course, he had to throw that thought at the back of his mind. He can't burden Xiao Zhan with that truth right now. He still has a serious issue with his family that he is yet to find a permanent solution to. And really, it's simply just because Yibo thinks he doesn't deserve someone as good as Xiao Zhan. Yet. Or maybe Xiao Zhan deserves someone better than him. Of course, a person like Xiao Zhan deserves so much. And Yibo feels like--actually, he knows--Yibo knows he's not cut out for it. Yet. Xiao Zhan may think he's good. But no, he isn't good enough for Xiao Zhan. He can work on it though. He should try. He would try. At least now, he can hold on to the fact that Xiao Zhan likes him too.