Run || Bertholdt Hoover x Reader

Run. Part Two.

When you first watched the two transform you didn't care if you died. The sting of betrayal freezing you in place, making you wonder what you'd done to deserve this. Even when Connie did grab you, you didn't try to save yourself. You watched and you followed them and listened to Bertholdt's reasoning. You were almost numb to it the whole time. But now there was something inside you pushing you on. Whatever it was you couldn't exactly say but it drove you on and refused to let you stop.

Another roar. This time from Ymir as she bit the nape of a titan at Reiner's legs. Giving him a moment of freedom to make another move forward. Bertholdt was slowing them down. If Reiner could use both hands they would be able to get away from everything easier. Your blood chilled at the thought, would they leave him? If he was dead weight would they use him to get away. Even knowing that he'd betrayed you, betrayed all of you the thought of him dying was too much. What would you do if you watched him die? The rational part of your mind was telling you that you'd accept it and take your chance to flee. But the louder part was saying that you'd jump in, you'd join the hopeless fight and die alongside him.

If Bertholdt transformed they'd be safe right? The colossal titan could stop all of them easier than Reiner and Ymir could. The colossal titan had destroyed the wall, a few titans were nothing. What if he couldn't transform though? You knew Eren was exhausted after his transformations and his titan was much smaller than Bertholdts. If that even had anything to do with it, you didn't know how this worked. But what other reason would he have for not transforming and saving himself unless he couldn't.

Reiner raised the hand covering Bertholdt and you felt your heart stop. This was it. You'd watch him die and there was nothing you could do about it. Your whole body shook, waiting for Reiner to drop him, to throw him, something. But that didn't come. Instead, Reiner grabbed the head of a 7 meter titan in front of him and squeezed, killing it. They were finally moving, actually moving, fighting against the mindless titans and pushing themselves through them to whatever freedom they were looking for.

Watching them move you knew you had to make your choice, go back to the scouts and the people who'd become your family or the man who you loved, the one who saved you. How much of what he said was to save himself, when he was confronted. How much was actually a lie? That was what you had to decide, the choice you had to make. The scouts were probably near Wall Rose by now and Bertholdt and the others were getting further away from the titans attacking them. Closing your eyes you shot out away from the tree, catching into the next one, flying through the air towards the wall.

Towards Wall Maria. That was where Bertholdt was heading, that was where you had to go. No matter the consequences you had to know the truth. There was really no other option in the end. He said the things he'd wanted weren't a lie, that he'd really been everyone's friend. That had to mean he really loved you. And if that was a lie you had to know. Both options put you in the face of death, both were dangerous but it wasn't worth it if you didn't at least give him a chance to explain. If he didn't care for you, if he never had cared for you, deserved an explanation.

The first thing you needed to do was get at least a little cleaned off. While the titan's were distracted chasing the other three you could take your chance. After that you'd wait until night to start moving again, they'd have to take a break, you knew from Eren that the titan shifters could only go on for so long. The best option for them all was to stop at the wall or take a chance in one of the towns if they could find one they deemed safe enough. It would be hard to do that though, so the logical stop was the wall.

You knew the land around here, you were from Wall Maria so finding a small stream wouldn't be too hard. You couldn't imagine how hard it would be if you didn't know the area, you didn't know exactly where Bertholdt, Reiner and Ymir would stop but finding a giant armored titan probably wouldn't be too hard. You'd get cleaned up and then try to stay as close to them as you could while staying a safe distance from the titans. If you lost track of them you could probably follow the titans to find them. Whatever was keeping the titans focused on them was one of the only things keeping you at least relatively safe right now.