𝟑𝟎 𝐃𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐃𝐞𝐚𝐥

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           Later that night, Lola sat down on the dining chair tapping on her phone when Demilade came into the dining room. He had been talking with his grandmother for a while before she decided to retreat to her room to sleep.

          He draw a chair backwards and sat on it and Lola looked up at him. She stopped whatever she was pressing on the phone. The air always seem awkward when they were alone. It was easy to pretend when others were around but not when they were alone. It is always so hard.

"Is it always going to be awkward between us?" Demilade asked after a while when she didn't say anything.

           Lola looked away without saying anything. She hates it too but what can she do? Her emotions were running wild. It is always that way when he was close to her. She tried to ignore it when his family are around. She just assumed and acted like he was her boyfriend when they are around and that had been what made the acting seems real. Because in her head that is what she is picturing.

"It has always been awkward." She replied flatly.

            Demilade scoffed. "No, it wasn't." Lola just shrugged without saying another word.

             When he noticed she wasn't going to say anything - which hurt him - he decided to say what had brought him to the dining room.

"You planned on going home once in a while so you could do some other... Stuff. Are you really okay with the vacation?"

"Yeah. I already agreed. There is no backing out now."

"You can still back out if you want to. I'm not forcing you. Grams is thinking of making the vacation two weeks." He said. He wanted to know if she will change her mind.

               Lola said nothing for a while. That was a lot of days away. And another week of holding in the pain and anger. More weeks of pretending. But that had been the actual time she had agreed to stay with Demilade. It made no difference just that she won't be able to go home as she wanted and planned.

"It is fine." She finally said.

             He heaved a sigh. She couldn't tell if it was a sigh of relief or the other way around. But she said nothing but just stared at her phone that was lying in front of her on the table.

"Okay then. You need to get some things for the vacation. You never planned for this."

             She looked at him. He was very calm for her likeness. She was used to hearing his usual frustrated voice, tired or exasperated voice. But he had been speaking so calmly recently.

"I can manage what I have."

"I don't know." He seems to disagree.

            He knows she has some clothes to wear but he also knows most of the clothes are something she could just wear inside the house or go to an event and non of them is suitable to wear in a beach house. She might be a chance to see and meet other people and it won't be nice to know she won't look the way she ought to.

"You don't have to worry about that. I will manage what I have." She assured him again.

"I also want to get some things. So just come with me. You might see what you may need." He said.

             There was no point arguing with Demilade. He had already planned on buying new clothes for her. So no point in telling him otherwise. Moreover, it is his money.

"Okay. When are you leaving?"

"Ten am tomorrow. I have someplace to be in the morning so when I get back, we will leave."

            She nodded her head in understanding. Then he stood up.

"Goodnight."

"Good night." She replied and she heard him walk away.

             She exhaled loudly when she stop hearing his retreating footsteps. She palms her face with one hand and holds her chest with the other.

              She hated this new atmosphere between them. And it kind of hurt her as she talks with a flat tone with him.

               She knew she was making things weirder between them but she can't help it. She is angry at him. She is mad at him for not even having any slight feelings for her. At the same time, she can't stop thinking about him. Her feelings are so mixed up that she seems so confused.

               Her heart beat irregularly whenever he is around. Whenever he is absent she can't stop thinking about him. She felt this flutter in her stomach whenever he touches her or when she sees him staring at her. She doesn't even know what to call the feeling. She was so confused because she want to forget about Demilade. She wants the feelings to stop. She hate the pain she was feeling because of his rejection. It hurt and she don't want to feel it anymore so she want whatever feelings she was having to stop.

             But that seems to be an impossible task. He always seems to invade her every thought. His voice, his eyes, his scent and cologne, the kiss, everything about him always come back anytime she closes her eyes. And when he is around, it is always so hard to think straight. So she just put a frown on her face and speak in a duh tone.

              Those were the facade she put on when he is around but inside her was a battle between feelings. She wish she could just tell him everything inside her. How she feels, what effect he was having on her and how mad he always made her feel when he had that impassive look on him when all she wanted was to know what he was feeling and what was in his head.

            She heaved a sigh and stood up to go to her room.

            She had a long day with Demilade the next day. God knows how it will turn out. She thought.

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