Talking to Twelve

"Something heavy on my chest makes me feel sad everyday Mom"

"My mom broke her fucken promise! She fucken told them...
I could've avoided a lot of embarrassment and hurt.
Where was this promised breakthrough? The following night, the subject was never touched again.

Why do I feel so ignored?
Did they not realize that I couldn't even think to face Today? And that I question Everyday?
Did they not realize that I constantly battle myself from bursting into tears in the kitchen?
Watching them at the table I want to yell, break every piled dish...and yell.
AND YELL.
LOOK AT ME PLEASE...
ALL OF YOU KNOW, SO THEN HELP ME!
IM SO SICK OF TRYING TO KEEP IT FROM SURFACING FROM EVEN MY OWN SELF, HELP ME."