Dreaming Alone | taekook ✔️

f i f t y - t w o

"God I don't deserve you." Jeongguk gave Taehyung's hand a quick squeeze. "Once we're in your room—"

"Jeongguk!"

The ravenette screwed his eyes shut and sighed before addressing his father. "Hey, dad. I'm gonna sleep over at—"

The man who stood at their cabin doorstep cut him off. "No you're not. You're staying here, away from that boy."

Jeongguk froze at the mention of his boyfriend.

"I'm not saying it twice, Jeongguk!"

"My window's open if you need me," Taehyung whispered quickly to the ravenette.

Jeongguk threw him an ok sign behind his back, trying to hide the fact that he was trembling as he approached his father.

Junseo seized his son by the shirt and pointed a finger at Taehyung. "I don't want you anywhere near my son, understood?"

Taehyung had never been the type of person to talk back to an adult. But he was so unbelievably close to spitting out an insult until the pair had disappeared into their cabin and away from earshot.

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tw: homophobic slur

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"Who is that boy to you?" Junseo demanded as soon as the door was slammed shut.

He's my boyfriend.

Jeongguk couldn't find the will to answer, his hands curling into fists. He was used to falling mute every time his father got angry.

"Tell me why I woke up this morning, looked out the window and saw my son kissing a boy."

What's wrong with kissing a boy?

"Are you—" His father took a deep deep breath, like the thought of his son's sexuality disturbed him.

Jeongguk was floating merely minutes ago, but now, with his head hung low, he felt six feet underground. The weight of his situation came crashing right down on his feeble shoulders. Worst part was, neither his pendant, or Taehyung, was here to console him.

"What do you think you're doing, getting involved with a fag?"

Suddenly the ravenette's head shot up, eyes bulging out of sockets.

What... what did you just call him?

Junseo took notice of his son's reaction. "There's nothing wrong with him being a fag, but you can't be near them," He polished up, as if that helped anything.

But—

"You know what fags do? They have their eyes on broken boys like you, they act all sugary sweet and they fix you up so you'd feel attached to them."

That's manipulation, not love. He loves me.

"You think he loves you?" Junseo forced out a bitter laugh, chin up. "We've only been here for a few weeks, son. A relationship in such a short span of time? That's lust, Jeongguk, not love."

The back Jeongguk's eyes began to sting, the muscle in his neck pulsing with the urge to scream back at him. But when his lips parted, no words made it out.

But I love him.

"You hear me? That's not love."

It's not?

"Understood?" Junseo continued, looking down at him, "You stay away from that boy. It's for your own good." He nodded, proud of himself. "Now that we have that over with, I need to give you something—"

But Jeongguk had whipped around and stormed up the stairs, refusing to let his father see the tears that pooled at his eyes.

He slammed the door shut and pressed his forehead against it, knees giving out as he slid to the floor and weeped.

Jeongguk braced his hands to the back of his head and let out a silent, gut-wrenching scream. One that no one could hear but himself. And he suppressed his emotions to the deepest, darkest parts of his soul until—

"Bambi? You there?"

Taehyung's voice came like a light at the end of the tunnel, so alluring that the ravenette got to his feet and stumbled in the direction of his window.

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Jeongguk when Tae pinched his ass:

holy llamas we surpassed 5k?
we reached 4k literally just four chapters ago what the fuck happened

you. you happened.
like gosh, it always blows my mind that there are people out there who take their time to read this book that i hold so dearly to heart :,) ugh istg i'm being such a sap every few chapters i'm sorry i'll tone it down

*pats head*
i love you and thank you for everything
goodnight
- hay