The next day was the day ishimaru and mondo would come to yours for the project you had once again hurt yourself and once you put the razor down you put on a long sleeved shirt and baggy joggers you had 1 hour to hide the notes you had written you hid them all in your pillow cases
1 hour later
*knock knock*
You opened the door and was visibly nervous you let them both in and was greeted with a question you hoped wouldn't come up
"where were you??" ishimaru and mondo asked in sync, you then froze
"i-i was busy..." you tryed to lie but you knew that it wasn't going to work
" what for 3 weeks!?" mondo said obviously worried and a bit angry, " where were you really!?"
"i-i don't wanna talk about this can't we just get the project over with..." you said with tears in your eyes
"sigh whatever makes you feel better.." mondo said a bit worried
Whilst you 3 were getting information they noticed that were rubbing your arms quite a bit and looked a bit in pain each time
"sorry but wheres the bathroom?" mondo said you pointed to the bathroom and mondo left
" y/n.. Why are you rubbing your arms so much??" ishimaru asked worried "i-i just well i-"
At that mondo shouted from the bathroom " W-WHAT THE HELL!?!?" He sounded worried and ishimaru rushed to the bathroom and crashed into mondo in the corridor " bro what happened!?" ishimaru sounded worried.
Meanwhile with y/n
You were nervous about what happened you took the time to try changing shirt as yours started having blood bleed through it you quickly changed into a blue tank and a jacket
Ishimaru and mondo then rushed into your room in panic and worry "guys w-what happened?" you asked "how long has this been going on for!?" mondo asked in a serious yet sad voice "w-what?" you were confused
Mondo then held up the razor with dry yet still wet blood on it your eyes then widened and filled with tears
"p-please show us w-were worried." ishimaru said in tears
You held onto the jacket you were wearing you were hesitant and they both recognised this and sat down next to you "look we won't be mad at you we just want to help." mondo said calmly
You then took the jacket off showing the many scars covering your arms
They both started crying and got scared. Ishimaru was quick to pull you into a hug and was surprised when you hissed in pain from him grabbing your stomach
" it isn't just your arms is it.." mondo asked even more worried
"n-no..." you said ashamed of your actions
Both mondo and ishimaru had a worried expression they were speechless the 3 of you stood there for a few minutes you went to put your jacket back on but mondo spoke up
"can we see the other scars we want to make sure they won't get infected."
Ishimaru nodded in agreement they both noticed you make a face that expressed fear you slowly nodded
"I-I'll be back." you said while picking up a pair of shorts and walking out the room ishimaru and mondo looked at each other and started thinking about what might have made you want to do this to yourself.
You came back in wearing shorts you were anxious you tended to harm your legs the most because you never wear shorts so it wouldn't be suspicious.
Both mondo and ishimaru were shocked there were more cuts then skin you were still holding your sides
"i-im sorry i-i just-" you started but they both interrupted
"you have nothing to be sorry about."
You went silent you didn't know what to say.
"do you have a first aid kit anywhere?" ishimaru spoke up he was trying to stay calm
"y-yeah i keep it in my draws next to the bed." you said completely forgetting that you also kept your depression medication in there
"i- y/n. Why do you.."ishimaru started but stopped deciding that patching you up was the most important thing right now
15 minutes later
After they patched you up they started asking you why but one question struck you
" is this our fault...?" mondo asked hoping that your answer was no
"i- no... Not exactly i felt replaced and some group of people just told me i was replaceable and i-." you didn't even get to finish
"why would any of us replace you!?" they both asked
"b-because i-im not important..."
Will them words ishimaru and mondo both decided that they should tell you the truth
"y/n, if you're not important explain to us why we love you." mondo said calmly
You were surprised, speechless and blushing
"would you like to be with us." ishimaru asked shyly
"why wouldn't i." you responded and looked up at them
They smiled and hugged you making sure to be careful as they don't want to hurt you
Omg finally done that i lost so much motivation
