«♡• Faded fate •♡» →YiZhan AU←

Chapter 8: Hate you but miss you

As he drove by places he missed, he saw his favorite restaurant not too far, so he drove to there and got out of his car, locking it. He walked into the place, noticing that it had gotten much more bigger and beautiful than last time he went there.

As the staff welcomed him in, he asked for a single table and went there as one of the staff guided him to his desired table. He sat there, picking up the menu card and going through it, noticing that the restaurant had a vast variety of food, now, instead of just Japanese food.

He called the waiter as he ordered his favorite dishes from the restaurant; Yakitori and Soba, along with a cup of tea. The waiter wrote the order down and went away, leaving Yibo there to scroll on his phone until his meal was ready.

His legs were crossed, and his arms rested on the side-arms of the chair, as he sat there; scrolling through social media, when he stumbled upon a picture from XiaoZhan's Weibo account.

XiaoZhan was wearing a beige-caramel suit, with a white shirt underneath, with only two bottoms connected. His hair was styled in such a way that his forehead was fully exposed, while his hair was tied in a man-bun, leaving only some pieces of hair on each side of his face.

Yibo gulped down the lump in his throat, and quickly shut off his phone, as he noticed that the waiter has brought his food. He thanked the waiter as he dug into his favorite dishes, and needless to say; they were still as mouthwatering and delicious as ever.

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Zhan had just posted his 'behind the scenes' picture, from his new photoshoot, to his Weibo account and all the fans were going crazy and asking which event it was from, as the original photoshoot pictures had not yet been released.

He was currently at his studio, taking a break, as he had been working on his new song for a while. He was about to get back to work, before he got a call from his mother. A sweet smile made it's way to his face as he happily attended the call.

"Hi ma! How are you?"

"I'm fine, bunny. What about you? You sound so happy, baby, something special happened?"

"That's because you called, ma! Can't I be happy just cause my mama called me?" He said followed by a small laugh.

"Oho being so sweet all of the sudden" She said, sweetly laughing. "How's Beijing? Like it so far, deary?"

"Who wouldn't like it here! I love it, though I haven't seen many places other than those, that are along the path of my way from the company building to the mansion, but still, I love it here already!"

"The mansion? Ohh Yibo's place, right? You like it there? How does he treat my baby? If he does anything to you, tell me okay, my little baby bear?"

"Ahaha maaa stop calling me those names already, I'm all grown up" he laughed before continuing, "yes, I love it here ma, and no he hasn't done anything bad to me yet, but if he does then of course I'll inform you.. In fact, he's been very.. good to me".

" hmm? What's that I hear? A heartwarming and soft tone while you're talking about someone, huh?" She teased Zhan as his own words.

"Ahh ma what are you thinking about, eh?" Zhan asked a little panicked, gulping down the saliva in his throat.

"Ohh come on baby, I'm your mother, wouldn't I know the changes in your voice and what they mean? So now tell me yourself, what do you really feel towards Yibo?"

"Ah ma, it's nothing like that seriously, I've only known him for like a month, and on top of that I-" Zhan was cut off by a knock at his studio door. "Ma, someone's at the door, probably the staff, so I'll get going now, I'll call you later tonight! Bye, love you" Zhan said as he received an 'I love you too baby' from his mother, and finally cut off the call.

Putting his phone in his pocket, he walked up to the door and opened it, revealing his manager; calling him to settle some business about his new album. He shut off the studio door and went with his manager.

After three more hours of staying at the building, he finally called it a day and went home. On the drive there, he couldn't help but go back to the night where his fight with Yibo, took place. He remembered how they both rode on Yibo's bike, to the mansion, and how furious Yibo looked, that day.

"Sir, we're here" his driver said as Zhan nodded and got out of the car, thanking the driver. As the car drove off, he heaved a long sigh and walked into the mansion. As he got in and closed the door, he didn't see anyone in the lounge room, which was quite unusual because Ji Li would mostly be there

He sighed and took his shoes off, walking into his room and closing the door behind him. He slumped down on his bed, exhausted. As he looked at the ceiling above, he couldn't help but smile to himself as he remembered all his times with Yibo;

The first day seeing Yibo, stunned at the man's looks. The day of their first fight and how weird he felt that night. The day after that, when he sat beside Yibo, while his heart thumped faster than ever, the same day; where they went to the dinner party and the other man looked so beautiful that Zhan couldn't keep his eyes off of him. The night he saw Yibo sitting beside his bed, admiring him, while speaking to him in a soft tone as the other man thought that Zhan was asleep. The day where he had spent almost all of his day, practicing and thought about Yibo whilst showering. The night where he went to Yibo's room with a bowl of soup and fed the other, and later on practically cuddled him to sleep.

Zhan's heart fluttered as he remembered everything while his mother's words kept ringing inside his head. Needless to say, Zhan was confused and frustrated; with himself, with his mind and heart, for not knowing what was going on with him, and mostly, at Yibo, because he was the cause of all this.

"Aargh Yibo, you idiot! What are you doing to me?!" Zhan groaned, frustrated, running his hands through his hair; aggressively ruffling it up. He took a few deep breaths, as he covered his face with his hands, still jit being able to keep his mind off the other lad.

"I hate you.."

"For making me feel like this!"

"But.." His heart thumped loud, as he mumbled the next few words to himself.

"I miss you.. Come back here, fast.." He didn't know why, but along with being frustrated with the older boy, he also missed him. Though Yibo had been away from him for only a day, but he felt as if the older had been away from him, for an eternity. His heart felt as if he has been longing for the other, for much more than just a day. He felt as if he'd known the other, for much longer than just a month. He felt as if he had a deeper connection with the other, rather than just strangers who've known each other for a month.

His heart longed for that face, those features, that voice.. that person. He, himself, didn't know why but he felt his heart shatter but also build back up, whenever he was near the other boy.

He groaned as he rolled over to his side, pulling the blanket on him and closing his eyes; not caring if he was still in his day attire and not his night wear. As his mind kept drifting off to a special someone, he tried his best to fall asleep, before mumbling something, with a long sigh.

"I hate you, Wang Yibo... But I wish you were here with me.. I miss you.."

The words softly slipped out of his mouth as he slowly drifted off to sleep, in his own dreamland, far from reality, where he didn't need to worry about his feelings; the feelings that made him confused, the feelings that kept him up til late night, the feelings he had towards Yibo, but was too afraid to declare it as such.

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~End of Chapter 8~