Oh, Honey | Fred Weasley

an update / not a good one tho

okay so this was meant to just be put on my message board but it exceeded the length so just adding it to all the books it's relevant for

okay so i just wanna say this will probably not be a message anyone wants to hear but i think i need to say it because it kind of puts a block between me and coming back to writing as much as i can

i started writing harry potter fics when i was like 16, was mid teens. i had never been in a relationship, never kissed anyone and i had a very unrealistic expectation and perception of love that i conveyed in my books because it was what i wanted for myself.

i was lonely and my books are, perhaps embarrassingly, a perception of that.

I am now almost 21 years old, i'm an adult and my life has drastically changed from when i was a young sixteen year old. I have found love that was different from my sixteen year old perception and you know what, it may be different but it's 1000x better

i get so many comments about how the characters in my books give them such high expectations of what they want from love and 1. you SHOULD have high expectations because you shouldn't ever settle for something you don't want
2. regardless of that, your perception of love is merging into mine when you read my books. Because you want what the characters have as much as i wanted that when i wrote that.

Not to burst your bubble but every single character in a relationship in my books are extremely unrealistic portrayals of love and whay love truly is. Love is beautiful but it's also hilarious and difficult and sad and happy and annoying and crying and laughing and everything inbetween

that was cheesy as hell but not as cheesy as the books which is the point i'm making. i am a strong believer that you shouldn't really have any reason to argue in relationships and i'm not gonna like disclose or overshare abt my relationship i'm in rn but i don't see arguments as necessary - if there's an issue you solve it together, the issue is the enemy not your significant other

(do we bicker? yes constantly cause we are so similar but we never have genuine arguments)

but this isn't even the point of this

basically, i have so many books right now that are unfinished because the idea of finishing them seems like something i've kind of forgotten how to do - i know that seems weird but books like poems/dark beauty, pretty little bumble bea, oh honey, stars of gold, fundamentals of loneliness, book love etc they all have these unrealistic perceptions of love that i don't crave anymore and i just feel uncomfy writing them, it just seems weird

also, a big thing is that i was mid teens when i wrote these books. I was a child, now i'm an adult - my life has drastically changed in about 5 years and the thing is i wrote all these books and theyre about young teens.

of course i was a teen when i wrote them but i just truly feel uncomfortable writing these
books now because they're about kids and they're in unrealistic relationships as if they are mature enough at like THIRTEEN and i just don't like that personally

i of course wrote them for that type of demographic but i just think that when i come back to writing (which is soon should be early October if things go to plan) i want to writing books in the harry potter universe because i love it and also love the idea that ik rowlings universe is getting used and she isn't making money from it, but that's beside the point.

anyway, if you've made it to here, i just want to say that i loved writing Bea, and Honey, and Adria, and Ryan, and Rory, and Birdie and all the lovely and wonderful characters and i want to experiencing writing them again, but if that where to happen i would need to skip to them being adults because that's all i'd feel comfortable writing

i just want to know who you'd like to see

and the thing is i'm not old, i'm literally 20 and almost 21 - so when i say adult that's the type of age i mean not like mid age 40 or something

i just think i would be a lot more comfortable and i have such cool ideas for these characters

like for example, Bea is a magical plant researcher who travels the world for her job with her partner and best friend Beau and still Remus' twin and James is like famous quidditch player etc etc etc