Dior Marie Matthews
Monday August 24th
10:34pm
Everyone is basically back to normal we all sitting in kadens living room watching our favorite show. The Chi "look look i told y'all he ain't did that shii" marion yelled. "get yo feet off my damn couch" kaden gritted through his teeth.
i laughed lowly. "fat can you get me some to drink please" jayden asked. i nodded and got up and grabbed a small gatorade from the fridge and a bag of chips.
"hmm" i said and handed him the drink. "thanks" he said and sat up slowly he grunted here and there. "bae my back" he whined i got up and helped him stand up and walked outside the doctors said walking around would help.
"mm" he groaned. "you ok" i asked looking up at him. he nodded and stood up straight trying to stretch this back out. "why you gotta be so tall" i asked i never really noticed how tall he was.
"i'm only 6'3" he laughed. " iM oNly 6'- stfu i'm 5'1" i mushed his head he just laughed and brought me closer to him looking down on me. "don't do that making me feel like an ant" i hid my face in his stomach.
"girl shut up ima look at you how ever i want to" he said and lifted my head up and kissed my lips slowly.
"thank you" he said. "for what" i scrunched my face up. "for not giving up on me when i kept pushing you away, for sticking by my side you and khalan" he laughed.
"thank you for helping me through therapy helping me walk and not be as scared as i was when i first left the hospital just thank you for everything"he said and put his forehead back on my head.
"your welcome we in this together" i said he nodded and continued walking a lil bit more he groaned and i told him that it was enough walking for right now he nodded agreeing with me.
we sat outside and talked to each other about are life goals and goals we already persuade. "i just feel like that night could have been different yk if only we didn't take the subway we could of stick to driving
if only i didn't speak back to the white man if- if" he choked on his words "hey hey breathe it's ok it's ok breathe look we couldn't change anything about that night god wanted his kids home he couldn't wait any longer he wanted them back" i said.
he laid his head back on my lap and softly cried i rubbed his back and kissed his cheek here and there. " they was my brothers man now i only got two left two man" he cried harder i shook my head and let him continue to let it out.
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we made our home and he went straight to the room. i went and started dinner i took out corn on the cob and steak i also took out some potato to make mash potatoes. "FAT" jayden yelled "YES" i yelled back "you make me something to eat" he asked softly coming into the kitchen.
i laughed and wrapped my arms around his waist and looked up at him "yes i will you see all the food i took out" i said and he looked up and looked around.
"oh" he laughed. "your such a baby" i said and he laughed and pushed me off him he went and walked to the living room i heard the netflix sound thingy and walked to the sink and washed my hands.
after i wash my hands i went a prepared the food i turn my music up and continued cooking.
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"food ready" i called out and went up stairs to change my clothes and get ready for when khalan to get dropped of from being with my mom yes i moved out and moved in with Jayden.
and things have been great i no longer speak to cortlen because he was upset that i chose to help out jayden with his situation so he said he won't claim khalan anymore that wasn't hurting anyone's feelings
jayden has done way more then what cortlen had ever done anyways. Cortlen walked around claiming him he never actually did anything for him like father figure wise.
he just wanted be known as the kid at school with a baby and he was known for that. and he got most of the girls like that. then he wanted to get upset because i didn't want to be with him.
only reason i don't wanna be with him is cause he dropped out of college and he's now a drug dealer he thinks i don't know that but i do everyone speaks on a nigga name big rex
that's the name i gave him 😐
"fat kk here" jayden said walking in the room with him. "hey my big man" i took him out of his arms and kissed all over his cheek. he's gotten so big now. he's starting to sit up and hold his own bottle
time really flies 😕
"fat would you mind if i went out with some friends" he asked messing with his fingers. " no go ahead have fun but not to much remember your back isn't fully ok" i said and he looked up
"really ahh i thought you wouldn't let me go cause of my back"he said. " no you can go just be careful" i said he nodded and kissed my lips and left out the room.
"welp it's me and you fat man" i said and he smiled at me i got comfortable in my head as he sat up and played with his toys i got the cover and pulled it up to my chest and laid fully down
i groaned cause i had to pee right when i got comfortable. i picked kk up an put him in his walking chair and went to the bathroom really quick.
i hurriedly pulled my pants down and peed i wipe myself then flushed the toilet i washed m hands and say and looks in the mirror the longer i looked more i seemed to notice the bags under my eyes the acne just the stress.
"i need break" i said lowly. i heard a light this i and i practically ran back to my room and seen khalan throwing his toys he had in hand off his walker.
i sighed in relief that it was nothing bad every time i hear something like that i think bad or i feel like one of those moms in the moves that leave there child in the room and come back to them gone
hate watching those now. i took khalan out of his walker and laid on the bed and turn coco melon on and waited for him to fall asleep soon after i was right along with him.
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Yolo people y'all probably forgot about this book but ima still update here and there but as y'all may or may have not known this book was originally for King Von and Asian. he will still be in the book as Cortlen tho
so sad to hear what had happened to him he wasn't my favorite rapper but he had a lot of songs that i loved and me and my brothers use to blasted them everyday to see who knew them word for word
RIP KING VON🕊
