Yesterday when tayler left i just did what i normally then went to sleep and again i just felt awkward with tonys hand around my waist but theres nothing i could do so i fell asleep uncomfortable and stressed i woke up today morning early cause i had a headache from how stressed i was i went downstairs to ryland avani addison and dixie awake and they were sat down eating breakfast i then grabbed my breakfast and sat down
"morning mads"addy and dixie said
i was just not in the mood to talk cause i was so stressed so i just put my hands on my head
"whats wrong"avani asked
"Are u ok"Ryland asked
"what happned"dixie said
"STOP JUST STOP ASKING"I shouted and walked out of the kitchen and outside
i sat beside the pool even more stressed i couldn't keep this a sceret and as much as i wanted to tell tony what happened cause i feel really guilty i couldn't cause i didnt want to brake his heart and i also wanted to tell someone what happened but i didnt know who to tell cause if i told kouvr she would end up telling alex and alex is just not good at keeping secrets and if i told dixie she would end up telling her sister charli and charli would just end up exposing me and try to get me cancalled cause she hates me cause i have more followers then her and if i told addison she would tell tony cause she used to have a crush on him and then there was also my brother he was the only would i could actually trust but at the same time hes bestfriends with tony so he might ending up telling him so i really didnt know what to do
after a few hours of staring into thew sun i finally decided that I'm just gonna tell nick and hes my brother so he needs to respect my privacy and just not tell tony
"why are u sitting out here alone"tony said cutting me out of my thoughts
"i just wanted time alone"i said
"is everthing ok cause u look down"he said sitting next to me
this just made me feel even more bad cause he cared about me he was really caring only for me to fuck thing up and sleep with tayler
"LEAVE ME ALONE"I said and got up and went out of the front door and again idk why i just shouted at him cause he was only trying to be nice but im stressed and nice just dosnt work with me right now
i got in my car and drived of to this park that me and nick used to go to all the time i sat on the bench and decided to text nick
NICK
me:hi nicky
nick:sup shawty
me:ryland wannabe
nick:yes rylands my bae
me:anyways what u doing right now
nick:watching outer banks
me:seriously u have watched that show so many times
nick:id watch it as many times as i can only for sarah cameron she's my bae
me:shes every boys bae so u got some competition
nick:why are u asking what im doing anyways u barely ask
me:are u free today
nick:no im expensive
me:seriously nick NOT THE TIME
nick:jeez calm down I'm joking i am free i have nothing to do
me:do u want to come spend time with me at the park cause we don't really talk that much
nick:sure what time
me:im at the park now so how long will u take
nick:on my way now
me:okay cya
nick:bye
END OF CONVO
I had to say to nick we were gonna spend some time together cause if i said i had to tell him something he would tell everyone that and when i got home everyone would start questioning me
I waited a few mins then saw nick in the distance and ran up to him and jumped on him and hugged him which made both of us fall to the floor and laugh wich made me feel better cause i needed the laugh
nick then got up and grabbed my hand and lifted me up
"wtf whys ur body feel so warm for do u not feel well"nick asked
"well thats part of the reason i told u to come here cause im just stressed and need someone to talk to and ur the only person i can trust right now"i said
"sounds so important if im the only person u can trust"he said
"well it is cause i kind of messed up big time"i said
"dont tell me ur pregnant"nick said
"what no why would u think that"i said
"u said its messed up so thats the first thing that came to my mind"he said
"well dont think that cause its not what i want to talk to u about"i said
"so what is it then"he said
"come sit down on the bench and ill tell u"i said and walked over to the bench and sat down
"also tony said u ran out and looked really mad whats up"nick said
"ffs can u give me a chance to speak isn't this what i want to speak about"i said
"how am i meant to know what you are gonna say"nick said
"idk dont ask me"i said with annoyed face cause now he was just pissing me of
"so basically"i said
"stop stalling and just tell me"he said
"u know tayler"i said
"wel nooo"he said
"what did i do to deserve a brother as annoying as u"i said
"how am i annoying when u said do u now tayler when i clearly know who he is"nick said
"just shut up now"i said
"Well the day of when i slept over at taylers house something might of happened"i said
"just tell me what happened u keep saying something happened and then u keep saying tayler just spit it out and tell me"he said
"tayler kissed me"i said looking down
"and"he said
"wdym and aren't u gonna be mad at me"i said
"when i say and i mean asin what happend next"nick said
"well i might of kissed him back"i said
"i knew it"he said
"how do u know"i said
"well u and tayler are really close and i knew u guys would end up kissing one day or whatever happened next which im guessing u guys slept together"nick said
"i couldn't resist not sleeping with him"i said
"well what about tony"nick said
"idk i just dont feel the same about tony anymore"i said
"and does tony know this"nick asked
"no and u cant tell him either"i said
"what no i cant hide something like this from my bestfriend"i said
"so u dont love me"i said
"what no i love u cause ur my sister"he said
"well if u did then u would respect my desicion and privacy"i said
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Do i really deserve him
FanfictionA lot of shit happens in this story and I don't want to ruin it so read the book to find out!!
