Do i really deserve him

Chapter 28

I got in taylers car and we left

"we are we going"i asked

"to a place that helps me calm down"he said

The whole car ride was silent cause i didn't really know tayler so i didnt know how to start a conversation

"we are here" tayler says parking his car

I look around to see a beautiful lake. We got out of the car and he grabs my hands and leeds me near the lake where we sit down on the grass.

"how does this place help u"i asked

"Well if u just stare around it calms u down its my safe space that nobodys knows about exept u"he said

"well why are u showing me this place its ur safe space"i said

"well u kind of need it more than i do right now and ur unique and a fun person to be around so it's not my safe space anymore it's OUR safe space"he said

"what makes u say that we barely know each other"i said

"well i was nervous to come back to the hype house but sinse i met u it made me not nervous so i decided to show u this place and we can use the time to get to know each other"he said

He then started telling me about his life and he was mentioning every single detail and i realised how our lifes had been similar so i told him all of my life and i started crying so tayler just put my head down on to his shoulder as i started crying on his shoulder

"wow"he said

"what"i said

"ive just realised that I've never really told all of this to anyone before ur the first person I've actually talked about my life with and i felt comfortable telling u"he said

"lets keep this our secret"tayler said putting his pinky finger up

"pinky promise"he said

"pinky promise"i said back and we just hugged each other

"so does this mean we are friends now"i said

"yes sir"he said

We started to talk about other random stuff and i started to get cold so i shivered and then tayler put his arms around my shoulder

"i have a spare hoodie in the back of my car if u need it"he said

"Yes i need it cause im getting cold"i said

We then headed back to the car and he handed me his hoodie and i put it on and it was getting kind of late so we decided to head back. Tayler suggested that i should come by his appartment so i agreed and he drove to his house when we got there he opens the door and tell me to go in i felt kind of wierd in someone elses house that I've never been to before

"u dont have to feel wierd"he said as he put his arms over my shoulder from behind

wait how did this boy know i was thinking that anyways I then started thinking about if he lives alone

"yes i live alone btw"he said

"DAMN boy"i said

"what"he said

"how do u literally know what im thinking"i said

"i guess where just soulmates and we have the same mind"he said and we both laughed     

he then showed me his room

"whys ur room lowkey cooler than mine doe"i said

"i guess i have good design skills"he said

tayler than said that we should film a youtube video together we then did a reacting to funny tiktoks video most of the videos were hella funny until we came across one of tonys vid great hes in my head again now but i couldn't show that on camera so i just continued with the video but i forged a fake laugh and i think tayler could tell but he just finished with the video and we did the outro and again i had to put a fake smile on for the outro after tayler turned the camera of he pulled me into a hug which just made me cry i put my heaod on his chest and i started crying

"why can i get over him"i said still crying

"if u love someone very much then tears will never go away it was the same with me and dixie"he said as a tear came out of his eye

"u still have a chance of getting tony back but i dont cause dixie already moved on with griffin so shes dating him now"he said and then started crying on my soulder and i was crying on his chest