Do i really deserve him

Chapter 39

Tayler had went to his room and i was just doing tiktoks until it started getting late so i went to the bathroom and changed into my pjs and went to taylers room

"yo whats up"i said and sat beside him on his bed

"nothing"he said

"no its not i gave u some space alone and now i want to know whats wrong"i said

"its nothing stop asking"he said

"oh i get it u dont trust me now"i said

"no is not like that"he said

"its exacty like that u went on tour and now u dont trust me anmore cause tour has changed u"i said and got up

"dont go anywhere"tayler said and pulled me back on the bed

"so r u gonna tell me or what"i said looking at him

"well i dont want to hurt ur feelings by saying this"tayler said

"what could u possibly say that is so bad that it will hurt my feelings"i said

"that i think u and tony should brake up"he said

I then looked down and moved away from him cause it hurt my feelings we sat in silence for a few minutes then i finally had the courage to say something

"why"i said

"im sorry mads but i just think that tony isn't a good influence on u if he tried to kill himself god knows what else he can do he might even try to kill u"tayler said

"stop ur being rediculous"i said

"no u are dont u see what this man is capable of"tayler said

"JUST STOP"i said

"NO"he said

"u cant tell me who to be with and i love tony and he made a mistake wich he promised never to do again"i said

"A PROMISE DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING"he shouted wich just made me cry

"im sorry its just hard for me to think of it its cause i care about u and i dont want u getting hurt ur basically my sister and bestfriend and u might think im being selfish but im not cause once he does something to u that is when u will realise u should have listened to me cause i love u and i dont want anything happening to u and i might aswell like u"tayler said

"when u say u like me u mean in a friend way right"i said

"oh shit did i just say that out loud"he said

"well noo"i said giving him that duhh look

"im sorry i just said anything that came to my mind just pretend i never said that"he said

"well thats somehing hard to forget"i said

"how long have u liked me for exactly"i said

"well ever sinse i met u"he said looking down

"well why didn't u tell me"i said

"well i didnt want it to ruin our friendship cause what we have is special and also ur with tony"he said

i then lifted his chin up and looked into his eyes

"u know this isn't going to change anything your still my bestfriend and nothing will change that"i said

tayler then leaned in and kissed me honestly i didnt even know what i was doing so kissed back but as soon as i remembered tony i pulled away

"ive been waiting to do that forever"he said brushing his thumb over my lips

"tony"i said

"what about him"tayler said

"good luck trying to tell him what just happened"i said

"why am i the one telling him"he said

"well how the fuck do u expect me to tell him what just happened"i said

"neither of us do"he said

"Of course i will forget about this and pretend it never happened"i said sarcastically

"yes"he said

"well this is something i wont forget in a million years and i can't just pretend this never happened cause"then i stopped

"cause what"he said

"doesn't matter"i said and got under the cover on his bed with my back facing him

I didn't really know what to do cause i didn't want to brake tonys heart if I told him and all of a sudden i got butterflys in my stomach as i felt tayler warm breathing on my back. I didnt even know if i liked him i never liked him in that way but ever now he metioned it and kissed me that's all i can think about. My head just kept replaying with do i like him do i like him not. I started getting uncomfortable so i turned around to the other side only to meet eyes with tayler

"cant sleep"he said

"yes"i said

"me too"he said

"There's alot on my mind right now"i said

"maybe this might help"he said and kissed me

This kiss felt diifferent if felt so full of emotion like he really wanted me then he pulled away and looked into each others eyes

"that just made my desicion so much easier and i can comfirm that i like u too"i said

"but what about tony"he said

"tony doesn't matter right now but what i know matters is that i want u"i said

i then pulled him closer to me and started kissing him but this kiss wasnt one of those emotional kisses it was one of those i want to be inside of u so bad kiss he then took of my top and one thing led to another thing and before we knew it we were completely stripped

"wait are u sure u want to do this"tayler said

"never wanted to do it so bad with someone in my life"i said and he smiled

he then grabbed and condom and slid it over his dick

"this feels so wrong"he said

"feels so wrong but right at the same time"i said

"it iz what it izz"he said

"way to go u just ruined this moment with a tiktok meme"i said

"stop talking and let me put u in 7 positions for 70 minutes"he said

"really why do u have to bring tiktok into everything"i said

"tiktoks my life so chill"he said

"NO I CANT CHILL"i said

"woah my step sis has some real attitude right there"he said slapping my arse trying to turn me on

i laughed at the fact he called me step sis(ifykyk lmfao)

"r u sure u want to do this cause we can always go back we dont have to do it u dont want to" he said

"yes im sure"i said and kissed him wich made him get turned on

SMUT WARNING FOR THE BEGINNING OF THE NEXT CHAPTER!!!