My precious friend gone nang dahil sa nagkagusto sya sakin... nang dahil sa pagmamahal ko sa kaibigan...nang dahil sa takot na we end up being awkward. For Pete's sake! I adored him, for being carefree, honest, funny and for his intelligence. Talagamg nagulantang ako sa kanya.
I told him yes, but at the same time i was in a deep thought...that friendship never ends, but a lover tend to end. Base on what i am seeing sa mga lovers na kahit anong sweet nila sa isa't isa, in the end, naghihiwalay rin. Not all, but i'm afraid for the possibility. Advance ako mag-isip eh.
Fast forward, we had a break up after 24 hours. Hindi ko kaya na mawala sya sa akin, but in the end, nawala pa rin ang best buddy ko. He was the best, until he falls in love with me.
Sad.. But my teenage life continue.
Sa lahat ng sakit at saya, nandoon sya.. ang childhood crush ko. Tsk! Tuwing nasasaktan ako, nalulungkot, kahit sabihin mo pa na nakalimot ako saglit, nandoon pa rin sya. Bakit nga ba?
Untill i found myself falling to someone again. It was exciting, dahil he knows what he's doing. It was intense, because he was my first. Uyy...hinga konti.
Yes, he was my first....to all. Akala ko mag lalasts ang love namin sa isa't isa, until i found myself crying....almost every night.
We were happy, i was happy, though may kulang, hoping na sana sa wakas makawala ako sa nararamdaman ko.... sa crush kong wala akong balita ni isa. Na may sarili nang buhay. I was thinking that maybe i should try and forget him..kahit na mahirap because i was too attachednsa kanya.
I found myself crying almost everynight because i knew he was cheating on me! He's fuckin' cheating on me! For real. I saw it.
Ibinigay ko ang lahat, all in. He was way older than me but that was fine. I tried to be a woman who fits for him eventhough i'm only 16 and he was 26. But never happened, he cheats and i cried.
I was hurt, thinking i'm hopeless! Isabay mo pa ang paghinto sa pag aaral ko dahil sa kahirapan. I did everything to continue my study. Nagturo ako ng sayaw sa ibang school while studying. Promoting some products. Jobe there, job here, job job job...
My lunch break became my job time...I did everything to support my needs. I'm 16, nearly 17 and i did those.
All i know is, hirap na hirap na ako. Parang ayaw ko na. Tama na please. But God gave me another chance.
-SharePinkMovesx
