White Mirrors

The Emptiness in a Home

“The Emptiness in a Home”

If life was a mystery, then where was home?
I want to see it for myself; I don’t want to be alone.
This is just a distant memory, but the pain is still on hold.
Where was life’s mystery? It seems to always be unknown.

I want to know before I jump into it again,
Don’t want to fall and realize the end,
Without you, without us, without the way you call my name,
Without the love, without the life, without those words I hear tonight.

This isn’t going to be another vortex filled with nothing but empty space;
I won’t allow it to be myself still stuck into the last part of this day,
Still looming at the end of all this whole crazy fanatic phase,
'Cause I swore I’ll never make the same mistake again.

I tried jumping in again, but all I saw was an empty room.
I shivered all I can, ‘cause it became so cold too soon.
Why did I even try, why did I believe you too?
‘Cause they were all just lies, look at the pain you put me through.

I guess it’s too late I was fooled again--
The worst fear I had turned into my end.
You pushed me, you blamed me, you called me names of the hell-sent,
I cried but those tears were the start of my vengeance.

What was the point of all the hate?
What was the point of all the pain?
What was your end part of the deal?
What would you get for all this for real?

What was wrong with you again?
I thought this beginning was the end?
What just happened to us now?
When did we start drifting apart somehow?

I thought we’re family.
I thought we’re family.

Let’s make up, I’m tired, please?
Let’s forget this ever happened.
Let’s make up, I’m tired, too tired please?
‘Cause I want to end, want this all to end.

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