When one asks
That I be loyal
It must seem as though
It was my betrayal
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When one asks
That I be honest
My heart aches;
Protests in dischorus
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See, I've been hurt
Some time in the past
Buried in the hearth;
The ashes of my heart
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All this while
I put on a mask
Laugh and smile
The never-ending dusk
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Holding on to the lights dying
Even with the dark pressing in
Ever-present gloom, ever-depressing
But I refused to give in
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And so I had lived so precariously
Refusing to fall prey to self-pity
After all, I, but one of many
Who've taken a fall; a jump gone awry
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"Do not keep things bottled up"
It's what often told and heard
The irony's in the hypocrisy-
I've never really written a word
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And so I'm here
Writing the words
I've so long neglected-
Dedicated to the hurt
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I realize my heart needs acknowledgement,
That hiding forever isn't an option;
I need to finally end this predicament
To be set free from fear's imprisonment
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And I admit..I was naïve
Ignored my mind..chose to believe
And I admit..I saw it coming
Expected betrayal to be forthcoming
And I admit..I wasn't oblivious
I was all too aware they were excuses
And I admit..I wasn't wise
Had let my heart be compromised
And I admit..I was stupid
Had given history chances to repeat
And I admit..I was wrong
Should have cut losses before it dragged on
... ...
Would this be another mistake?
Another cut?
Another blow my heart's to take?
A bigger scar waiting to be made?
... ...
One asks..that I tell
When my heart changes its course
And I thought..just as well
I can extract a similar promise of yours
Though perhaps..I don't want your word
For to keep my end would be absurd
"A change of heart?"..my heart asks
It laughs; knows it's stuck fast
"A change of heart"..my heart ponders
It fears that this is just a repetitive verse...
... ...
And I admit..I am afraid
Fear to be told..the key to the lock has changed
Even if so..you won't be blamed
You deserve better..a heart that isn't lame
I'm all too aware..I'm riddled with faults
Why else would he have left countless times..without so much as a second thought?
And I admit..I am in fear
There's no one else I've ever held so dear
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PoetryPoetry about a certain someone I'm sure most have,and also some other things. I hope you guys can relate. :) Enjoy. Feel free to comment-constructive criticism is welcome-, and of course vote-only if you like it and you want to ;)-, I will appreciat...