with the sun between his teeth | shortstory √

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remember the time you were of use to me?, i used to treasure you? i used to keep you in a place inside my heart were i could remember her and my time together, but now all you bring me a short fragments of the wonderful times we had, i need you to stop, because every time i get a glimpse of her, my body convulses and my vision goes white please, please i can't take it anymore. what am i saying, of course you can't forget her, you cant just erase someone that magnificent out of your head, you just can't. i blame myself, ishould have seen the warning signs. God. most days i wish i never met her cause then i could sleep at night. and i wouldn't have to walk around with the knowledge that there was someone like her out there. then i curse myself for thinking that because I was, beautiful, smart, caring, loving. i was everything with her . she made me something, so if I was something with her then alone what would I be.

she kept me alive