i'm not allowed to meet you
and i cared for a long timei've stopped caring now
other things
bigger things
have happened.all i feel now is alone
and i don't think you're the answer
i wanted any morei remember overhearing my mother
on the phone one night
saying in hushed tones
that she didn't want to upset me
that you didn't want to meet me
you thought it was all too muchi cried
i cried a lot
i'm over it now
i've faced bigger rejections sincei forgot to write about it then
so i can't think of anything poetic to saysince then
i've cried over bigger thingsi'm numb to you
but i'm not sure
i should be.and one day
you'll come back
expecting me to still be waiting
for your mind to changeexpecting me
to have stayed
the same excited childbut you tore that out of me.
it was not only you, no
but you were the first.
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poetry
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