Dollhouse

XV. Eternally Lost

Chapter XV. Eternally Lost

"You're long gone, but I'm here still stuck in a gray world without you. Not moving forward, not living the past. Just stationary. Just here...waiting for you even though I know you'll never return. We're lost. We're Eternally Lost.

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Corvette's POV

I looked up. I feel better now. I should probably go to school. Madami pang gagawin, madami pa akong kailangang asikasuhin para sa Interschool Festivals.

I got up and looked at myself in the mirror. I look like a mess. My hair was sticking out at all directions. Isinuklay ko ang mga kamay ko sa buhok ko. At nakita ko ang nakangiting larawan ng kakambal ko sa may malapit sa salamin.

"Mas pangit ka padin. Pangit!" I smiled a crooked smile. Ni hindi ko na naramdaman kung ano'ng oras na umuwi si Kria kahapon. I owe her. I smiled to myself. She's indeed too kind for me. 

Lumabas ako ng kwarto ko to find Chaos na nasa harap ng piano at parang wala sa sarili sa pagtipa sa keyboard. He wasn't really making anything...he was just there absentmindedly playing. Parang tumagos sa ala-ala ko ang pangyayari noong mga bata pa kami.

Helena was so fond of Chaos. Na kahit maliit pa kami at gustong gusto niyang siya ang kumakarga kay Chaos. She would place Chaos in her lap while she played the piano and the baby Chaos would make a mess in the keyboard that would always make her giggle.

Chaos adored Helena kahit na wala pa itong muwang sa mundo noon. His first word wasn't the conventional "Mom" or "Dad" it was "He-nna" and Helena was always overjoyed when the little Chaos.

Naramdaman ko ang paglungkot ng mga mata ko. I took Helena away from everyone.

I took her from Chaos. If Helena was here with us malamang hindi na kinailangan mag-aral ni Chaos sa abroad. Buo padin sana at masaya ang pamilya namin.

The tragedy that happened years ago tore this family apart. We're holding up outside pero these empty halls of the house was screaming of the pain and loneliness.

Pinagmasdan ko sa labas ng hardin si Mom. My mom was beautiful, she was the perfect example of a wife. Pero ng mawala si Helena, it shook her. She took anti-depressants and was always paranoid. Ang dating bukas na tahanan namin ay nagmistulang kulungan. She would freak out at the slightest things. She's keeping a tough facade through the years. Always showing a pleasant face, but I know mom is crumbling day by day inside.

Walang gabing hindi niya iniyakan ang silid ni Helena.

Helena was mom's star...she was mom's bestfriend. Mom loved Helena dearly, as she loved me...pero nagbago ang lahat ng mawala ang kapatid ko. Mom never blamed me...but I know inside she does.

Naglakad ako papunta sa garahe. I guess hindi nanaman umuwi si Dad. Dad on the other hand blamed me.

Ng makabalik kami mula sa abduction at malubha ang lagay ng kapatid ko sa ospital. Our family business almost went down the drain. Helena was Dad's unica hija. She was Dad's little sunshine. After a tiring day, Helena's shrieks of laughter would always energize our father. Harapang sinasabi sa amin noon ni Dad na paborito niya si Helena pero it was fine with me. My father always reminded me that I should protect my sister at all costs because a girl is God's princess from above. Helena was God's gift to my Dad. Patas kaming mahal ni Dad but Helena would always be special. I understood Dad even I adored my sister.