Jay P.O.V
Did I really just tell her I love her ? What is wrong with me ? She is going to shoot me after saying that . I do indeed love her Beyonce but I wasn't ready to tell her . It wasn't the right time but it just blurted out of my mouth . I really hope she didn't hear me because lets face it after everything I said about her tonight she isn't going to believe me .
"Jay do you mean that?" I heard a sweet voice say
I turned around and Beyonce door was open staring at me . Her eyes was filled with hope and lust but I could tell she was crying by the redness and the puffiness.
"I mea-." I said being interrupted
"No Shawn did you mean it? Yes or no ?" Beyonce said
"Yes." I said looking down
I know she doesn't feel the same about me and that's what made me feel stupid.My stupid ass should just go and find a ho somewhere instead of making this girls life a living hell . She seemed to have a perfect life and then I came and messed up her relationship and business for what? My feelings ?Uhh
"Jay look at me." Beyonce said sounding like she was crying
"...."
"Please Jay." She said with nervousness in the voice
I lifted my head but I couldn't look at her in her eyes .
"No Jay look at me !" Beyonce said
"I am ." I lied
She placed her hand on my chin and moved my face so I was looking at her in her eyes .
"Better." She said with a weak smile
I smiled back .
"Jay I love you too." She said looking in my eyes
Did she really just tell me she loved me? Is she just saying it because I am Jay-z?
"Bey if you dont mean it please dont say it ." I said feeling a little ashamed
"No Jay I really do love you . I didn't know it was love right away but I knew every time I seen you or someone said your name I got butterflies and i felt fluttering in my heart. I have been trapped in Lyndall cage for a long time now and you set me free Jay . I know it sounds corny but it seems like faith or a fairy tale . You must be my Prince Charming because when you kiss me I feel like fireworks go off and a fairy put magical dust on us . I really do love and care about you . When you said all that stuff about me it was weird because other people have said the same think about me but it hurt when you said it . Its like you have control over my emotions, soul and heart . When you want to you can change my whole mood in a matter of seconds . That's why I kept pushing you away I just didn't like that you had that control over me but now I know sending you away just gives you more control. So I am going to stop fighting it and just go with my heart and I am happy to say my heart is with you Jay . " Beyonce said know having tears in her eyes
What she just said is everything that I feel . Its crazy that we have the same feelings . I wiped the tears off her face and just brought her into a hug .
"Beyonce don't cry okay . I love you too and everything you just said is the same for me . I love you and I would love to be your Prince Charming as long as you will be my Princess?" I said to her
"You don't know how much you mean to me Jay . You saved my life more then once." Beyonce said still crying
"I know and I was happy to do it ... Now look at me ." I said picking her head up
She looked into my eyes .
"I want to know if you will be mine .. I promise to never hurt you and protect you at all costes .I will not be like Lyndall . I will treat you like the Princess you are .. Please just give me the pleasure of calling you mine?" I said looking into her eyes
"Jay I honestly don't know . I want to be with you so bad but are we ready? Is this just in the moment? i mean I want to be with you but ... ." Beyonce said hugging me
That hurt so much to hear her deny me like that . That's one reason I didn't want to fall for her because this happened to me before and it hurt . I still does hurt and it stops me from loving others but I can see it was for the best . I do understand why Beyonce said no . I mean I am the man known as a pimp and a man whore and stuff so why would she want to go out with that .. I knew she was out of my league so i should have gotten my hopes up .
"I understand .. " I said putting my head down
Beyonce P.O.V
What is wrong with me ? Why did I say no? I want him I do but there so much going threw my head and it wont let me . When I heard the pain and disappoint in his voice when he said "i understand" I felt so bad .
"Jay I am sorry. I do love you." I said
"I understand Beyonce. You don't want to be with the big pimpin, hood guy who use to sell drugs. Its understandable and its okay . You deserve someone way better then me and I hope one day you get that .. I'm sorry for messing up your life these couple months." Jay said staring to walk away
After ge said that I was still I couldn't move thing orr anything .. All I knew was that the love of my life is walking out that door and I don't want him to go . How can I stop him though? He seemed to already made his decision to go why stop him?
"JAY!" I said running to him
"What Beyonce?" Jay said turning around
I ran up to him and kissed him before he could go . He didn't kiss back which made me upset but I knew he was just shocked . After a couple seconds he started to kiss me back and it was amazing . He wrapped his arms around my waist and I put one of my arms around his neck and the other one on the side of his face deepening the kiss . He licked my bottom lip asking me for entrance and I gave it to him.
He broke the kiss and went down to my neck and started kissing and sucking on my soft spot making me let out soft moans . I wrapped my legs around his waist and kissed him again . He walked me to my room and placed me on the bed . He was laying in between my legs never breaking the kiss .
"Make love to me Jay." I whisper in his ear
Words of The Author
I know I know .. Don't say it .. I know its been like 2 weeks since I put something up and I am SOOOO SORRY! I have been working on the struggles sequel and when I tell you I have wrote the same first chapter 6 times and I HATE THEM ALL! I wanted to update that story but every time I go back and ready what I wrote I hate it and I make another chapter and try all over again and they all suck .. I know you guys are going to say pick the best and post it but I want to start it off right. I mean I guess it was because I wasn't planning on having a sequel so I didn't have the idea in my head for a long time and fix it .. Yes I have idea about what chapters are going to be way before I do it I just have to make more to get it to that point and walaa you have 3 more updates in you head ready to be typed ! #imagination ... So yeah and this is short because I honestly don't know what i am doing right now with this story . I have some ideas but how and I going to make it happen the way the story is going i don't know .. I was going to finish the sex scene but I just couldn't do it with my sister all in my face looking at what I am writing so wait on it .. Oh and I am thinking about making another story that has NOTHING to do with Beyonce or Jay-Z .. I want to do something different and challenging? What do you guys think about that? I mean if you don't want that I do have about 5 other stories with covers and titles and like 2 updates under it that have to with Jayonce if you don't want me to that other story .. And comment what you think about Jayonce might being together here? Finish sex scene or na? Comment and follow me on ..
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