I'm Not What you Think I am // Jinyoung(GOT7) x reader // Completed.

10. I Couldn't Say No.

Days went by....

Jinyoung didn't even bother talking to me.

He didn't even ask for me anything during work.

He also would walk through the hallways of the company with his head down.

I tried to approach few time but he never responded nor cared.

Sometimes at the dorm, I would hear him breaking things in his room while sobbing.

It broke my heart. I felt bad that I couldn't do anything  about it and even if I did, he won't allow me to interfere with him.

It sucked.

It was Wednesday night, I was lying in my bed when I suddenly got a text message. I opened it.

Jinyoung:
-Hey (Y/N), can you come over to my room?
-I wanna talk to you.

Me:
-Sure, be there in seconds.

I mentally screamed of happiness. I was so happy that he wants to talk. So I quickly got up and went to his room.
I knocked and entered.

He was sitting on his bed staring at oblivion.

His room was a mess.
There was broken things on the floor and torn photos of him and TaeSi.

I sat beside him and he looked at me.

"How are you doing Jinyoung?"

"What do you see?" He said in a cold tone.

I only nodded my head.

"Have you been good?"

"Yeah I guess but, I miss you Jinyoung." I said.

"Me too."  He said without making eye contact with me.

"Can I ask you something?"

He nodded.

"Why are you so sad and broken if you don't have feelings for her?"

"She was my first love (Y/N)." He started crying.
"We were so in love and then one day, we had it and it became like routine, and we eventually lost our feelings for each other because all we cared about were our desires." He cried more.

"Oh, I'm really sorry Jinyoung. And I'm sorry I thought you were a bad person. Please stop crying. I can't see you like this. She doesn't deserve your tears."

"I'm not crying because of her or of what she had done. I'm crying for myself, because it's all my fault. I should have left her when I lost my feelings to her. I didn't want her for pleasure I really didn't (Y/N)."

I could feel how much he was sad, from his words, his eyes, and his tone.

"It's okay, I know Jinyoung." I hugged him.

"You'll be over it, I promise." I said and kissed his cheek.

"Thank you (Y/N) you are helping a lot." He slightly smiled and blushed.

"It's okay don't thank me."

He broke the hug and suddenly...

All I could feel was the tingling feeling in my body and the butterflies in my stomach.

His soft lips were on mine...

I couldn't move neither kiss him back, I was hypnotized and shocked.

"S-sorry I-i wasn't supposed to do that. I-I'm just vulnerable." He stuttered.

He kissed me just because he felt weak and vulnerable??

Was he using me? Of course he is, I'm so stupid.

It broke my heart...
 
I quickly got up from his bed,

"ARE YOU USING ME?" I shouted and stormed off from his bedroom.

He followed me.

"N-nooo (Y/N) wait please." He stopped me from going to my bedroom.

"Don't freaking lie to me Jinyoung. It's obvious." 

"(Y/N) p-please I need you now in my weakest time, I'm not using you I swear please (Y/N)." He begged.

"Then WHY did you kiss me WHY?" I shouted angrily.

"You'll know later, let's go somewhere after work tomorrow and I'll explain everything."

"I-i can't trust you."

"You have to trust me please (Y/N)."

"Fine,"
I couldn't say no. I gave him a second chance in a silver spoon.

"Where do you wanna go?"

"As you like, I don't mind."

"Hmm maybe the beach?" He said giving me a questioning look.

"Okay, goodnight."

I left to my bedroom.

I started crying.

I loved him so much that I couldn't even say no.

I will probably be the one who will end up hurt.

He will use me to mend his broken heart and then leave me as if I am a toy.