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Im standing in front of my full length mirror, wearing an outfit I put together (the one up top (^-^)) I didn't know whether to keep it on or not to keep it on. I went to push a piece of hair back when my loose fitting sleeve fell down a pit, revealing Josh's hand imprint on my arm when I had my horrible nightmare. I don't know when to tell him, it's like being pregnant and keeping it a secret until you find out the perfect way to say.

I'm looking at myself in my mirror. 'This would look good with makeup' i thought 'but sometimes it takes forever to put it one and take it off' I decided 'why the heck not?' And did my makeup

 'This would look good with makeup' i thought 'but sometimes it takes forever to put it one and take it off' I decided 'why the heck not?' And did my makeup

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I wasn't going to be down for another hour so I could at least bask in self loathing for 20 minutes on how good my makeup was before I remove it.

When I was finished with my makeup I stood in my full length mirror, looking myself up and down 'I don't look that bad' I thought to myself. All though I didn't know if I had the courage to go downstairs like this. The last time I went out like this it didn't end so well.

I'm trying to find an imperfection about my outfit to have a reason why to hurt myself, even the smallest one 'I could've not worn these shoes but they do go good with the outfit' dang 'is both my eyeliner wings the same, not really but you can't really notice and that'd be a stupid thing to hurt yourself for' not even noticing, Josh opened my door "princess, Pat made lunch-oh" he said. I gasped and turned to look at him, I put my head down and rub my arm
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"I'll change" I said. Josh walks to me, only a few inches apart. He puts his hands of my hips "no, don't change, you look-wow" he said, I blush, hiding my face. He removes my hands from over my eyes, he grabs my jaw, lifts my head up to look at him "and your makeup, god, so amazing, you're so amazing" he says

I settle my hands on Josh's shoulder as I'm looking into his eyes, radio playing in the background. Though Josh's eyes are brown, they look like they could hold the ocean and more. I hide my blush on Josh's shoulder and laugh. "You really know how to make me cry, when you gimme those ocean eyes" I tell Josh, he smiles "no fair" he says "I'm scared, I've never fallen from quite this high, falling into your ocean eyes, those ocean eyes" I say rubbing my thumb on his cheek.

He kisses me gently. "Baby, I have brown eyes" he says "but they could hold the ocean" I say, he smiles "fifteen flared inside those ocean eyes" Josh kisses me softly again "I've been walking through a world gone blind, can't stop thinking of your diamond mind" Josh says kissing me on the forehead.

"Why didn't you tell me you like wearing stuff like this?" Josh asks softly, I shrug "I dunno, the last time I did something bad happened" I tell him, Josh pulls me closer "what happened?" He asks

"Some guy lifted my skirt up" I mumble. Josh's grip tightens on my hips. "I'm scared, I've never fallen from quite this high, falling into those ocean eyes" I say. Josh wraps his arms around my waist, he puts his head on the crook of my neck "I'll love you forever, even if you don't love me back" Josh says "I could never stop loving you" I tell him. Josh pulls back from the hug, he stares at my eyes lovingly.

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