As soon as Ryan left I ran to my room. I stared at the walls as I sat on my bed with nothing to do. I sat there thinking of how stupid I am. Telling her to run away. I shouldn't have, things just come out when I talk to her.
I felt like dying. I felt like I could just crawl into a ball and die. But I knew that wouldn't help. I looked through my bag and got out the story we were supposed to write for class. I did it just for her becuase she didn't want to talk to me and I realized I still wanted my A.
I jumped out of my window knowing that miama wouldn't want me leaving the house. She wouldn't know what I would do. I ran down the street and to the riverside where the gang meets up for some drinking and such. I've never been but some of my friends invited me.
"Hey! It's Louis! Glad you finally decided to show your face!" My friend Antoine said to me as I walked toward the crowd of people. I heard people talking to each other mostly in spanish. I heard them talking about me and some other people. They talked about doing some hits and other things like that and I knew I would have to be involved in that.
"Hey, Lou." One of the girls in the gang, Emilia, came up to me. Her short skirt showing off leg and her high heals giving way under the sand. She was hot. But I couldn't keep Ryan off my mind. "You up for some fun?" She said giving me her suductive smile while biting her lip. Em was known for cheating on people. She was known just for wanting to have a good time and didn't care who she hurt to have it.
"Not tonight, Em." I say to her as I pass her. I hear her give an agravated moan and walk back to me. We walk side by side and I know she would want to try it again.
"Come on, Lou." She says in a pout. "YOu know you want to!" She says and rubs my arm in what she thinks is a suductive way.
I walk passed her and head to the cooler. I grab a couple of beers and sit down next to some of my friends."What is a guy like Louis doing here today?" Andre, a short mexican, asks me.
"I'm not having a very good day. Thought that getting completely drunk would make it better." I say to them as I chug my first beer and throw the can a head of me in the big pile that everyone created. I open my second one and chug it.
"Gosh, go easy!" I hear another girl say to me as she walks to sit next to me. Anita. Probably the hottest girl in the gang. She likes to stick with one man but she can break hearts before the relationship even begins. IT's said that she's friends with benefits with about half of the gang. "We wouldn't want little Lou doing something he might regret!" She says when she's sat down next to me as she rubs my leg.
She smiles next to me and we stare into each others eyes for a moment. She gives me a sexy look, I know what she's trying to do. She's trying to get with me. Just like Emilia did. What's with all these girls and always being sluts. Miama wouldn't be proud.
I chug my third and forth beer and start on my fifth which I down in two seconds flat as I place conversation with other people. All the boys leave and I still sit here with Anita rubbing my leg suductively.
"So what are you doing here. Everyone left. They all went to take a dip. Wouldn't that be more fun then hanging back with me?" I ask her and she looks to me.
She leans into me and whispers into my ear. Her breath going down my neck. "I'd rather have you." She says and goes back out to be face to face with me. She slowly leans in.
I love Ryan. But she doesn't love me. She might have said it to make me feel better but she doesn't love me. She doesn't. This will be better for me. Anita and my lips intertwine. She pulls on my hair and I pull her on top of me. We grind together insinc then she moves her lips to my neck. Her breath and her lips pulling me further into a trance, it might just be the beer but I know that I want this.
She starts taking off my shirt and I slowly take off hers in feeling her skin on the way up and then I take it off and over her head. I throw it to the side as she unbuttens my pants and I unclasp her bra. I feel my phone buzz in my pocket as she sucks on my neck. It keeps going off and I know I can't leave it, I have to answer it. But it feels so good.
"One second." I say to her as I get up. I walk down the beach in my boxers as I answer.
It was Ryan. She told me that she loves me. Now what I did was wrong. Is it bad that I want to go back? Is it bad that I don't want Ryan right now but I want Anita, a girl I barely know at all. A girl who I mostly know just from today. Is that bad?
After hanging up the phone I walk back to my spot. She stands up to meet me and her greeting is a kiss. She pulls me in with the kiss and pushes me up against the wall of the river and kisses me all over, rubbing her hands up and down my body and I can't help but do the same. I get pulled in by her in a blink of an eye but when my head starts to feel less dizzy I regain my voice.
"Anita." I say as she tries to pull down my boxers but I stop her.
"Yeah?" She asks breathlessly.
"I have to go. There was an emergency." I say to her and she pouts.
"We'll continue this another time. Right?" She says but I don't give a response as I put my clothing back on.
I say bye and then head off the beach and to my home feeling extremely guilty. Well, it's not like we're together, Ryan and I, I didn't do anything bad.. Right?
