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Prologue: If I were a boy

"He was never there for me, Mama... He's always busy for me but when it comes to my brothers he has time..."

Mama carressed my hair while I cry on her lap. I was fifteen and I had this.recital in school and all I want was for my father to be able to watch me.Pero wala siya. He's too busy building an empire.with my brother Hermes Atlas.Hindi ko na nga alam. Lahat ginagawa ko just to please papa pero kulang pa rin ang ginagawa ko.That night I cried hard and mama just laid beside me trying to calm me down. She kept saying:

You are different because you are Lukas Consunji's daughter.

But if being Lukas Consunji's daughter makes me feel worthless parang ayaw ko na lang maging anak niya. Ang problema kasi babae ako..Gustong-gusto kong maging lalaki para mapansin na ako ni Papa at hindi puro si Hermes ang nakikita niya. Sa totoo lang inggit na inggit ako sa pinsan kong si Yza dahil kahit babae.siya ay mahal na mahal siya ng Papa niya - even my cousin Casiel and Gianna - they were loved and treasured by their fathers pero ako hindi ko maramdaman kay papa iyon.

When I was sixteen --- Papa gave me a red.cadillac. He.said that it's one of the perks of being a Consunji. I gladly received that. Pero hindi ako marunong mag-drive that was why Papa hired a personal driver for me.

His name is Hades Vejar. He was tall, lean and a bit muscular. He was very manly but he was very impatient too. He's just not my personal driver, he was also my body guard.

"I don't like you." I told him off. He was seven years older than me. He just glared at me. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay pagkatapos ay bumaba na ng sasakyan. Pumasok ako sa bahay at saka nagdiretso kay mama. She was on the kitchen cooking dinner.Lagi siyang nakangiti kapag nakatingin sa akin. I smiled back and hugged her. Mahal na mahal ko si Mama. She is and will always be my queen mama.

"Mama can you make me an egg ball please? I like egg balls and fishballs but Papa doesn't want me eating those tagpipisong thingy." Hindi ko alam kung paano nakakagalaw si mama habang nakayakap ako sa baywang niya. I was sixteen ay haloa.magkapantay na kaming dalawa. Tumigil siya at hinaplos ang ulo ko.

"Maarte talaga iyang ama mo eh." Napapahagikgik na wika niya. If there is one thing I learned from my parents is that the love they feel for each other is genuine --- na kahit na sobrang busy ni Papa ay may time siya pata kay Mama.

Days have passed. Lalo kong nararamdaman na mas mahalaga kay papa ang mga kapatid ko kaysa sa akin. Hindi ko na iniisip iyon. Basta nandyan si Mama hindi ako nalulungkot. Pero kahit ganoon ay gusto ko pa rin na mahalin ako ni Papa so I still believed in him.One night I asked him to go to my school program. Ipanlalaban kasi ako sa quiz bee. He said he'll come and that hr was proud of me pero.noong araw na iyon ay hindi naman siya sumipot. Si mama.lang ang nandoon para mag-cheer sa akin and as t turns out pinuntahan ni Papa si Hermes sa school nila dahil may football game ang kapatid ko..I wanted to cry then pero naisip ko na palagi na lang akong umiiyak sa harap sa harap ni mama so I didn't cry that time. Pinauna ko siyang umuwi noon. I turned to my.personal driver and asked him to take me away habang.nakaupo.ako sa.likod ng kotse ay iyak ako nang iyak. I know that he was looking at me through the rear view mirror but I didn't care. I'm sixteen and broken hearted --- because of my father. He couldn't keep his promises.

Inihinto ni Hades ang sasakyan sa lugar malapit sa break water.Walang kibong lumabas ako. I found benches in there and I sat on one. I was biting my lower lip. Naiisip ko na kung lalaki siguro ako ay hindi ako babalewalain ni Papa.

Bahagya akong nagulat nang may nakita akong isang plastic cup ng eggballs sa harapan ko. I looked up and I saw Hades handing it to me.

"Ayoko!" I snapped. Naupo siya sa tabi ko. "How dare you sit beside me! Driver ka lang!"

"Manahimik ka nga, Hera. Hahalikan kita diyan eh!" My eyes widened.

"How dare you!" I snapped again. Nginisihan niya lang ako.

"Gusto mong mahalikan no?" Tudyo pa niya. Sa inis ko ay tinampal ko ang bibig niya. Hinuli naman niya ang kamay ko tapos ay hinatak ako papalapit. We stared at each other tapos ay inilayo niya ako.

Napatingin na lang ako sa paligid. Hindi ko alam kung bakit kumakabog ang dibdib ko pero kumakabog iyon. Nararamdaman ko lang iyon kapag inaaway ko o pinagaaway ko si Hermes at Ares. I was looking at him tapos ay nagpalinga-linga ako. My eyes caught the.Vejar Hotels nasa tapat lang namin iyon.

"Are you somehow related to them?" I asked. He just grinned.

"He's my father." Cool na wika niya. Lumipad ang tingin ko.

"Then why are you my.driver?!" Sigaw ko sa kanya.

"Daddy issues. Basta hiwalay sila. Sumama ako kay Mama. Mula noon wala na akong narinig mula sa kanila. Kaya ko namang buhayin kaming dalawa. Anyway..." He said. "You have daddy issues too. A classic rich.brat who gets to have everything she wants even if she doesn't need it feels unappreciated and worthless." Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko sa kanya. Lahat naman kasi ng.lumabas sa bibig niya ay totoo. I just sighed.

"Sometimes I wish I'm a boy." Mahinang wika ko. Narinig ko siyang pumalatak. Naramdaman kong hinawakan niya ang kamay ko. Tumingin ako sa kanya.

"Hindi pwede." Sabi niya sa akin. "If you're boy, I won't be able to do this...."

He whispered. My eyes widened with amazement. Lumalapit ang mukha niya. Palapit nang palapit hanggang sa maglapat ang aming mga.labi. He kissed me. My.eyes widened at first but then dahan-dahan akong napapapikit. I was letting him kiss me.

Hades Vejar is kissing me.

Noon pumasok sa isipan ko ang ideyang: Hades and Hera 'till eternity...

Hades and Hera.

We are.breaking the Greek Mythology.

Hades and Hera....