Mindfulness ( blue edition)

{ 37 } pointless feeling

You're non-existent in my life
as unicorns in one's head
I fought back a smile
whilst staring at the ceiling ; lying in my bed

you managed to make my day
in the silliest way
Like a sun-ray
The thought of you sneaked from the cracks on my bedroom wall
tickled my awareness every morning
Your methods are stunning
make your decision to stay !
I'm daring you !
Ever since I realized you're a man of actions with few words enriched with mindfulness

I fell in love with you like an avalanche
Slowly then all at once in a matter of a sudden
it was so fast and distracting
It was a burden

Love is crazy
It starts within but does it always end "with him"?
That's what made me realize love is a curse and it gets worse
It's hard to look at you , it's even harder to catch your gaze all over me
When I still can do nothing !
Although
I lowkey know ...
and believe it's not just a casual or a loathing gaze , those looks that tried to figure me out every time I stepped out of my comfort zone are dangerous.

paralyzed you left me
It's the sound emanating from my chest that doesn't quiet down ; my heart
Is an organ turned to a monster
And for that ;
I created appreciation of my ribs for being actual cages .