Rapacious Lover

Chapter 5:

[Unedited]

(Kayani)

I couldn't stop the tears that burst forth like water from a broken dam, gushing down my face, ready to cause a flood. I felt the muscles in my chin tremble like a small child not getting what she wanted.  I look towards the the open window, feeling the cool night rum against my skin.

Why do I put my self through this. Why don't you just leave? I questioned my self.

Go back home. I gladly would if it wasn't for my father constant beating because I looked too much as my dead mother.

I would rather be close to something I would never be able to have that emotionally hurts me, than get beat with a belt on a daily basis and be physically hurt.

The sound of my door banging on the wall made me jump up and stare and the door. "Hi mama." Vanni's little brother Angelo mumbled. "Can I sleep with you tonight. They all left me." He pouted, rubbing his sleepy eye.

I forced myself to smile and waved him over. "Sure baby." I said sliding over to give him some room. He quickly made his way to bed and struggled to come in until I raised his little body on my bed.

"Thank you mama." He muttered. I smiled back and him before giving him a gentle kiss on the forehead. "Why are you crying?" He questioned wiping a tear away from my cheeks, white his little hands.

He called my me mama since his mom was in hospital for a year when he was born so I had to take care of him, since the others where busy doing missions and keeping him away from their father Giuseppe. He caused the accident that almost killed Angelo and their mother so the refused to let him see Angelo.

"No reason honey, I'm just happy to see you." I lied, tickling his ribs so he wouldn't ask anymore question.

He giggled. "But you see my everyday mama." He responded.

"So. Doesn't mean I can't be happy to see you, does it." I reasoned.

"No, it doesn't." He laughed trying to worm his way from me.

"Exactly." I said, moving his hair away from his face.

He yawned tiredly and snuggled his little body next to me. "Should we practice our Italian before we go bed." He asked, his eyes slightly drooping.

This isn't going to take long since he's half asleep.

I nodded. "Sure." I agreed. "But you already know it fluently, so you'll have to help me with certain words."

A smile plastered against his face as he sat up. "I'll be your helper." He brightened up. Allowing all traces of sleep from his body to disappear. "Io troverò il nostro flashcards." He said, jumping of my bed and running to his room. (Translation: I will go get our flash cards)

I sighed loudly falling back on my bed. This is going to be a long night.
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I yawned waking up to a bunch of flash cards scattered around the bed. I sighed. Today was Saturday my birthday and I had nothing to do.