I let my blood-stained clothes soak while I went to shower. I looked at myself in the mirror. I almost vomited at the sight of myself. Dark rings under my puffy eyes, pale white skin. I could even see my ribs without sucking my gut in. Gross.
As soon as I got in the shower, the hot water stung my wrist, making it bleed again. Fucking fantastic! I let the warm water hit me as I fell to the floor, clutching my wrist. The pain felt good, it let me know that I was still living. It made me happy for some reason. I thought for a moment as to why pain would make me happy. Then I realised. I haven’t felt real pain in years. I have felt something every day, but I wouldn’t describe it as pain. It was more of a numbness, or emptiness.
The pain in my hand died down eventually, which made me upset. I decided to crawl into a ball and cry. It felt good to finally let it all out. It’s not normal of a male to be so sensitive, but I’m not a normal guy, am I?
“ANTHONY PADILLA!” I shouted; reliving the feelings I felt when he announced he was moving. I hit my head on the wall several times. I can’t live like this anymore.
[I'm so sorry this chapter is short. The story gets better, I promise! ~Amy]
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