Resisting the Alpha.

..::chapter eight::..

..Christina ..p..o..v.....

No one moves just standing there in shock,but only the 4 of us heard this ..well im sure a few close outside the room heard but ran when they heard how upset Alex was, and the fact im his mate, DANG! , why why why?! i did not want this! 

"Christina?" he says, i look up at him ,the look on his face its so full ,fear ,joy ,...love...

"Y-yeah?"

"Im sorry if i scared you,"he says , i wonder what face i must be making and i try too make my face blank.

"Can we go talk ...alone" he says , i give a shakey nod,he reachs for my hand and i let him lead me out of the room and upstairs, as we go through the living room everyone stops and looks at us,then i know they all heard.

We go upstairs and he leads me too a room at the end of the hall, he opens the door and it looks like his bed room,

"this you'r room?" i ask

 "Yeah" he says letting go of my hand and running his hands through his hair, he doesnt say anything yet,

I look around his room and i can see parts of him in it, there are pictures all around the room,of whats looks like his family and pack members doing stupid stuff, there's a dresser on the side of the room, and the bed on the other side of the room its a king sized bed,with really soft looking covers and pillows, and there is a small book shelf on one wall full of books movies and stuff,and a over sized fluffy bean bag chair, the walls are a soft but dark green and like the rest of the house it has hard wood floors,

"Christina?" he says snapping me out of my daze.

"Yeah?"

 he sighs and runs his hands through his hair again.

"Please, say something!" he says

" What should i say Alex? "i say,he groans

"I dont know say something! please something what are you thinking? how does this make you feel?! ......what do you feel for me?" he says stepping closer to me until he has me pushed against the wall his hands on either side of me locking me here like Jessy had, but Alex looks more....desperate

"P-Please!" he says ,

i dont know what too do!! but i hate seeing him like this! so desperate, without thinking i lift my hand up too brush his hair from his face,he sighs,

"shh"i say

"Im sorry ,i just ...i just...."

"I know, i know"i say ,then before i realized what was happening he leaned closer and kissed me,  and wow!, it was full of so much , it was soft and sweet, yet hungry and full of passion, i wanted more, he pulls me closer too him kissing me harder. he moans into the kiss, i wasnt expecting the feeling i had when he pulled back laying his head against mine, Cold ,it felt cold without him and lonley, but he was still holding me so it wasn't as bad,

"I love you Christina"He says in a low tone that send a chill through me,

Oh man what in the world am i going too do?!,  but before i can think to much he snaps me out of my thoughts, im a little shocked when he picks me up,bride style

"W-What are you --"i say ,

"Shh" he cuts me off, then lays me back on the bed, um whoa whats going on?

"A-Alex?"

he says nothing ,but he leans down and kisses me again, i lose myself in the kiss,wow. this goes on awhile....then he pulls back looking in my eyes,

"C-Christina, p-please , i need you now." he says ,

oh crap, what now? what do i say ? NO! but but....uhg!

No i can not do this! what about Hannah? i cant just do without thinking ,i have too think about her what could this do too her? i could be messing up big here.....but.....

"I ..I...can't " i say, my eyes tearing up against my will, i do want him, of course he is my mate, but this is just happening way too fast,

"I need...i need....time" i say, he sighs and gets off the bed, and now i do feel lonley.

"Fine," he says ,he runs his hands through his hair, and i sit up,

"I should get back down there anyway." he says not hiding the irritated tone in voice. 

"Are you mad?" i ask

"No."

"Really?"

"No okay!"

"Im sorry,i just..i kinda just met you!"

"Yeah, i know, look you can stay up here if you want just dont wreck my room okay?" he says

"o-okay..." i say ,the nhe walks out, and it feels like my heart twist alittle..

uhg! why why me?

then,against my will! i start crying, im not really sure why everything i guess, today has been crazy. and i have too admit him being upset with me hurt, i didnt want him to be mad at me,but it wasnt really my fault. was it?

UHG!

i lay down on the bed and keep crying after the day i had i think i deserve too cry a little,

but now i wonder what now?

(okay everyone i really need comments! please whatcha think? thanks for reading!!)