Broken

Burn

(3/11/14$

My arm burns with pain

Why?

Because I cut last night

I lost my two weeks clean

I cut over one hundred times on my left arm

(3/12/14)

A year ago

I never would have thought that I would cut so much

I told myself I would stick to my hips

But then I moved to my wrist

And I said with confidence

That I would never ever cut anywhere but there

Nothing lasts forever, though

From my wrist to my arm

But only three deepish cuts, though

Right in the middle

And out of desperation once

I cut on my shoulders

One cut each

Both are scars now

My wrists have scars

My hips

My arm

My thighs

My shoulders

At least 50 scars

Some big

Some small

Some fading

Some new

But no matter what you say to yourself when you start

You WILLl cut more and more

The cuts will spread

And become deeper

You stop being scared to cut deep anymore

You stop caring where they are

The way you dress changes from short sleeves to long sleeves

And you start being carful of the way you sit and move while wearing short as to not show your scars

When you cut on you thighs you make sure you cut so they won't be noticeable in shorts

The thing is...

If you want to be in control of your wardrobe and everything

Don't start self harming

It sucks because it's hot when you wear long sleeves in the middle of summer

Just be careful