Broken

5mm

2 1/2cm long

5mm wide

So much blood

I need a new

Bigger band aid

It bled through

It's my fault really

That its bleeding

so much right now

I picked at it

So much blood

I was in the shower when I cut it

I had to get out so I just shut the water off

I made the cut

Dragged the blade across it

Over and over again

It stung and hurt at first

But at a certain point

I couldn't even feel it

All that was there was

The sound of the sharp blade

Ripping my flesh

Deeper and deeper it got

Wider

And I wanted it that way

I wanted it deeper than

Last time

Deeper than my deepest cut

And I succeeded

But not quite

While I was cutting it

Several times, my parents

Yelled and knocked on the door

Telling me to get out

I cut real deep

I stuck my finger in it

Almost getting the whole fingertip

In the cut

I ran it along the gash

Warm blood flowing out

And that did it

The wonderful high feeling

I loved it

I silently laughed

Breathing rapidly (in a good way)

Closed my eyes

I was so shaky from it

That I could slice anymore

I stood up

Looking at my leg

Drenched in blood

My fingers

Red

I took the washcloth

Cleaned myself up

My dad pounded on he door

"Get out of there!!!"

"Okay."

Scared, I hurriedly grabbed my blades

Wiped them off as I stepped out of the tub

Set them on the counter

I turned the sink on and rinsed the cloth quickly

I was trying to get my clothes together

When my dad

Pounds on the door as hard as he can

I scream

He shouts the meanest he's ever

I cry out, "okay, I'm sorry."

I rush as fast as I can

Shaking and hyperventilating

Getting weak and numb

Scared, frightened, afraid

I thought he was going

To break down the door

Beat me

I finished my chores

Brushed my teeth

All in the bathroom

I was so frightened

I kept my head down

My lips sewn shut

As I made my way

Up to my room

Tears and sobs

Spilled from my body

I was having a small

Panic attack

I thought he would

Break down the door

And slap me

Knock me down

Kick me

And punch me

Beat me

I've been quiet since

Very quiet

Lips sewn shut

I wish they were...