Broken

Food

That feeling that i get when i see food

I just want to puke

Food just makes me cringe

Every time I think about eating I'm just disgusted by it

Eating it makes me feel sick and guilty

I just want to spit it out and push it away

I guess all those days I didn't eat lunch have gotten to me

I don't want anything to pass my lips anymore

But, remember...

All those times you wished you had a flat stomach

Thigh gap

Good body

All the pictures you looked at

All the thinspo and fitspo videos you watched

Saying that you can do it

And you'll start tomorrow

Eat healthy

But you never do those things

You just don't eat as much

You're not stupid

You know it's bad for yourself

You do it anyway, though

Wishing it wasn't unhealthy

You hear all those stories about what happened to girls who didn't eat enough

And you become disgusted

You say that it'll never happen to you

Guilt spreads through your body

And disgust

You've let your own body down

And you can't stop