Waiting For Forever

WFF - 34

Kathryn Chandria

(Play the song on the side ok. Now.)

I held on to my white gown as if it was dear life. Chineck kung okay pa yung bun ko. Tapos inhale, exhale. Ako lang ata ang mukhang tanga dito na nasa labas ng simbahan naka-gown habang mukhang nakadrugs. Naka saran a yung church door, but the entrance song hasn't played yet. Or maybe it did, I'm just not aware. I slowly peeked and saw all of the guests standing. I shook my head. No, no, no. Tumakbo ako papuntang back door ng simbahan, napuputikan na yung long gown ko. I wiped the moist on the glass of the back door to get a clearer look. There stood DJ.

My DJ. In his tuxedo. Smiling from ear to ear. Magka-holding hands yung kamay niya at binubulungan siya ni JC na best man niya. Tapos binbigyan siya ng thumbs up ni Katsumi, Seth, at Lester. He stuck his tongue at them at tinignan yung aisle. My DJ is getting married. I sighed and held my bouquet of flowers tighter, pero hindi to panaginip. I looked at the girl walking down the aisle who apparently isn't me. She wore a tight-fitting gown. Pano kaya siya nakakahinga don? Hawak niya sa magkabilang kamay yung mommy't daddy niya. BAKIT. HINDI. AKO. YUN.

The dad gave the girl to DJ. My DJ shook his hand and gave her mom a kiss on the cheek. He looked so happy. She looked beautiful. Tapos yung babae, niyakap ni DJ at saka inalalayan papuntang altar. I tapped my fingers on the pew in front of me. Hindi nga ako nanaginip. I bit my lip, there it goes. The sign of the cross.

"Speak now, or forever hold your peace." Sabi ni Reverend. Everyone looked at around except for the girl. Even DJ was looking around until he caught my eye. He loosened his grip on the girl's hand and I gave him a sad smile, he bobbed his head towards me; acknowledging my presence. A sad smile spread across his face pero he immediately perked up ng humarap sa bride nya. JC's eyes followed his at napatingin sakin at medyo itinaas ang kamay para sa kaway. Matagal-tagal bago nagsalita ulit si reverend. Dahil lahat sila, as in lahat, nagtinginan sakin. I slowly stood up and raised my hand, earning an "oh" from all the people. Even DJ. "Excuse me, iha?" The reverend asked.

"I object." DJ looked at me, surprised. Iniwasan ko yung tingin niya. Tama ba to, Kathryn? Yung babae naman, sumama yung tingin sakin. At mukhang nais na kong patayin ng mga kamag-anak niya. "I object." I repeated, tapos unti-unting ngumiti si DJ. Binitawan ang kamay nung bride to be niya at bumaba sa altar.

"BABE!" Sigaw nung babae but DJ didn't look back. "BABE!" She repeated. At mukhang susundan si DJ. Tiningnan siya ni DJ at nagshrug, he couldn't take off his grin out of his stupid face because of my objection. "We're getting married now, babe!" She demanded. Instead of answering, DJ looked at me and I shook my head.

"Don't say yes." I whispered. And he didn't he ran towards me, grabbed my hand and we left the church.

"AND CUT! Good Take!" Sigaw ng director namin. I pulled away from DJ, but he grabbed my hand kissing it. "That was beautiful." The director commented again before taking 5, and going back to his own trailer. Umupo ako sa isa sa mga chairs at kasunod ko naman si DJ at umupo sa tabi ko. Tapos naririnig ko na palabas na ng simabahan sila JC. Lumapit samin si ate Celestine at ate Jackie, with big grins on their face.

"We're finally doing it!" Sigaw ni ate Celestine at yumakap kay DJ at kumiss naman sakin. "And you look beautiful in that gown, Kath."

 

"Aww, thanks ate Cel. Onga e, eto na yun. After we release this video—"

 

"You can finally date the love of your life in public!" Pagtutuloy ni ate Jackie. Tama yung narinig niyo, after irelease neto, pwede na kaming magdate ni DJ in public. He can take me out whenever he wants and we can do whatever we want. Why and how? I almost terminated my contract dahil nasasakal na ko sakanila pero when they agreed, we had terms and conditions. And one of them was, do it slowly but surely. At maging medyo discreet naman daw. DJ & I both agreed. Naisip namin na para mai-announce, gagawa kami ng music video na kami ang partner. JC wrote this song Speak Now the other week dahil may kaibigan daw siya na nasawi dahil ikakasal na sa iba yung mahal. Ayun yung idea. The idea of the music video came from Seth, whereas, I should object to the wedding. The musical arrangement, came from Lester and Katsumi, para medyo fun daw at hindi malungkot kahit heartbreaking yung video. Ako naman yung kakanta. Si DJ lang, walang contribution. Master eh. DJ held my hand tighter at hinalikan ako sa pisngi.