(H2OMcQuaid) - I miss you. Why did you have to go?

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Nothing can be heard.

But the sound of his own heartbeat.

8 months.

And counting...

That's how long he's been gone.

Jonathan stares at his navy blue wall. Mind blank.

Nothing in his mind.

Audible, loud knocks can be heard from Jonathan's door.

'33 knocks this week... probably the fewest yet...'

"Go away." Jonathan's raspy voice yells.

"Jonny... this isn't healthy for you. Come on." Luke's concerned voice says through the door.

"Leave me alone!"

"Jon I-"

"I said leave me the fuck alone!"

Then silence follows shortly after.

Then footsteps grew softer.

Jonathan unlocks his phone and goes through his gallery once more.

It pains him to look through the precious memories he had with Bryce.

But what else can he do when he's lost the sunshine in his life? He knows Bryce doesn't deserve it. He never did.

But Jonathan never knew either.

He found out only when it was too late.

Jonathan stares at one of the selfies Bryce took. At this point, he feels too numb to even cry.

He feels too numb to do anything.

It pains him to even put on a smile.

He hasn't left his room to talk to anyone. Occasionally, he would leave his room to go to the bathroom. But nothing passed that. He'd barely eat anything.

Loud and audible knocks can be heard once again.

"Who the fuck is it now?" Jonathan mutters under his breath.

"Jonny?" A calm voice calls out.

"Who the fuck are you?" Jonathan yells.

"It's Evan... Luke called me..."

'Why is he here.'

"Go away! I don't wanna go outside!"

"Jonny please... the guys are worried."

"Let them be! I lost all care the moment I lost Bryce..."

"Please Jon..."

"Leave me the fuck alone!"

Soft voices can be heard outside the door.

Then silence once more.

Jonathan glances back to his phone. Looking through the album labeled 'Bryce and I ♡♡♡'

Jonathan never knew it would end like this. He skimms through the very first photo they had together.

It was taken at PAX...

Suddenly, memories started to come back to him. He didn't want it to... but it did anyway...

"Bryce. Thank you..." Jonathan says through tears.

"Why? I didn't get you anything." Bryce says sadly, looking down at the present Jonathan got him.

"You didn't need to get me anything... I'm already happy, because of you. Because you came into my life. Because you became the sunshine to my dark days." Jonathan says with a bright smile.

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