Arthur's POV
Why ? Why ? WHY must I be in a constant fight for affection from someone who only sees me as a friend? A man like him who can lift my spirits with on word and put me down with just a look. A man who can my heart go berserk with a single movement. Why must I be in love with a straight man? Is he ever going to love me? Will he ever notice me? Alfred ... Alfred... Alfred ...Alfred ... ALFRED! My heart is like a broken record , it has many scratches, but it keeps screaming the same tune the same broken words of my love for a man as charismatic as him, but this broken record is far too torn and way beyond the point of repair.
I'm stuck in my thoughts. A lonely place. A rather harsh and cruel place where I face the reality of my hearts ache and all the guns shot and wound the man I love forces upon me without knowing. Should I really end myself? Should I end my misery? Will he notice? No . He won't care. I can't move my limbs nor hear my heart beat . But I can sense it slowing down gradually. Maybe I'm not ending myself of my own will but my body is doing it for me.
Maybe this my end . An end of a long lived life. An end of a long battle with myself. An end to my sinful life. An end to my unrequited love for a man who never even knew of my greatly felt and heart ache of the such extravagant love I had for him.
Alfred this may be my end but know that I deeply love you even though you never knew.
Authors note :
IM SOOOOOOO SORRRRRYYYYYYYY GUYSSSS I HAVENT UPDATED IN SOOOOOOOO LONG . I FEEEL SOOOOOO BAD THAT I FORGOT BUT IVE BEEEN REALLY BUSY AND I JUST IM SORRY . I am Soo sorry but anyways this chapter is written in italics because these are the thoughts of Arthur of when he is in coma.
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