Joey's POV
I really shouldn't have said anything.
I feel like shit.
I bet I just made Shane hate me.
I laid down on my bed, thinking about what I just did.
I feel so bad.
I mean, he already has issues with his self esteem. I bet I just made it worse.
"I love you." I mumbled to myself.
Now he is never going to forgive me.
I'm just going to cry my heart out.
I rolled over on my side, facing the wall, and put my face in my hands.
I let the tears flow out.
Releasing the pain I put Shane and myself in.
I feel like a monster.
Just then I feel a hand on my shoulder.
I don't care if it's a murderer. He can kill me if he wanted to.
"Joey. Please stop crying."
I just kept crying.
I feel Shane get in the bed with me. I don't turn around to face him.
I mean, just facing him would put me in more pain than I already am.
I just want to cry until I have no more tears to shed.
"Joey. Stop." he said as he rubbed my arm.
"I hurt you though." I eventually got out.
"Yeah, it's just- I heard you bawling your eyes out. And I care about you to much to leave you here alone."
I just kept crying.
I still feel like I just stole a child's lollipop and hit him in the head with it.
"I really am sorry Shane. I shouldn't have reacted the way I did." I said as I sat up still facing the wall.
"I forgive you Joey. I just felt like you hated me."
"I could never hate you Shane." I sniffled. "You're one of the most amazing people I have ever been with."
I turned to face him and saw that his arms were cut up and bloody.
"Oh Shane..." I mumbled to myself.
"I need to get better." he said.
"I know. But I still love you."
"You say that."
"Yeah. And your point is?"
"It's just- I have trust issues. And I can't really see anybody saying they love me, and not running off."
"You're still on the topic of me 'leaving you?' I told you. Never leaving." I said as I traced little circles on his hand.
"I know. I'm still getting used to it."
"Shane. You should be used to it. Now let's get your cuts cleaned." I said getting up changing the subject.
Shane followed and we went to the bathroom. I ran his arm under the running water, and washed it with some soap.
He winced in pain a little bit, but it was for the best if him.
I wrapped his arms in bandages and we went back in the bedroom.
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Pain, Love, and Ocassional Suffering
FanfictionLisa just broke up with Shane in the worst of ways. So he turns around and never looks back. He goes to Joey Graceffa's house and stays with him. Joey tries to make him happy at the same time. Will they realize the secret love they have for each oth...