Unheard Echoes

✔ 47 "Moved On?"

It's time to act like nothing happened

It's time to fake smiles once again

It's time to pretend that I've moved on

Even if deep inside, I'm still really broken

I told myself that I'll forget you

Why am I such a hypocrite?

I want out of my mind

But how do I begin?

Just one glance at you,

I fall all over again

When will I accept the truth

That you'll never be my man

It's stupid of me to think 

That I can make you fall for me

I bet that you are not even affected

Thinking of it makes me clench my fists

I still cry every night

Recalling those memories with you

I never thought that I'd be like this

Just because of someone like you

I remember how you held me in your arms

I remember how we sat next to each other

I remember how you would look at me and smile

Do you know that you're the one I've been waiting for?

Moving on from you is easy to say but hard to do

It hurts me seeing that it's fine with you

I still have that long handwritten letter

That I made for you years ago

Lying on my bed

Imagining what should've happened

If you only said that you feel the same way too

Then things wouldn't be like this

I'm trying to stitch up the scar little by little

You still make me feel like I'm invisible

You still haunt me every night

Everything flashed before my eyes like a dream

I have the paper with your childish but adorable doodle

I look at it and I would eventually smile

If someone asks me, I wouldn't answer

Because I just can't tell why

Whenever I pass by those places,

I always get teary-eyed

It brings back memories

About you and I

I wantched you walk away from me

Then you approached her

Never thought that you'd find another

Someone please give me a broken heart's cure

I bet that I'd break down any second now

I see your face everywhere I go

Your voice, your laugh, your scent

I wish my heart was made of stone

If I could erase you from my broken heart,

If I could forget you by a finger's snap,

If I could only be numb,

I would but sadly, I can't

Today is your birthday

It's time to hide from the world again

I will just sit in one corner and cry my eyes out

Then a moment later, I imagine you smiling

I don't know when this will end

You'll forever remain in my heart

If you'd also begin to think about us,

You already know where and when to start

*~*~*

This poem is about a girl who is a really joyful person. She smiles like nothing's bothering her but deep inside, like what is written there, she's really broken. These past few years, she had been loving the same person but she is ignored by him over and over again. The day came when she discovered that he likes another so she tried moving on. She kept herself busy but at night, when she's about to sleep, everything keeps on coming back- every memory that she treasured. The guy doesn't know that she has his 'childish' doodles and kept them with her. She knows that the guy knew that she liked him. She never admitted to herself that she wanted him to like her too, she keeps on saying that she do not even need him to like her back but to notice her instead. When she passes by those places, every memory of him keeps on coming back. Whenever she sees him, it's as if her heart was being stabbed and shattered into tiny little pieces. The day came when it was his birthday. She greeted him but there was no reply. Because of disappointment, she hid in her room and cried. A moment later, without her even trying, his smiling face suddenly 'appeared'. No one was there to comfort her, she only had herself.

I was inspired to make this poem because of so many reasons. It's about a person that is trying to move on from a guy even though they didn't become a couple. 'If you begin to think about us, you already know where and when to start.' even if she knows that it's impossible for him to think about them, deep in her heart, she hopes that he'll do so. I become emotional while reading this because it feels like I'm being torn into two.