3 words,8 letters

What if?

Alyssa's POV

"he needs surgery and he has a 30% chance of survival" the doctor had said he was still talking but I couldn't hear him,there was still hope.Sam,my sweet little angelic Sam with his tiny arms and his big heart was going to be okay,he had to be.I walked nervously my hands shaking behind the doctor to Sam's room,I wanted to pick up him and hug him tightly and never let go but i felt guilty and angry he didn't deserve a sister like me,he deserved better.I touched his cheek and his red opened.The moment he opened his eyes a soft but reassuring smile passed through his lips and at that moment I knew everything was going to be alright.I couldn't help it I started sobbing uncontrollably the moment he smiled because I knew that if it weren't for me he wouldn't be here in this hospital bed,he'd be back home and his condition the doctors had told me was a kind of lung disease which children mostly inherited from their family and if caught too late couldn't be cured,I'd heard him cough a couple of times back at "home" but he had insisted he was fine so I had dropped it.I could never have imagined he would be this sick,and on top of all that he wasn't getting proper food,it was all my fault..all of

it.Sam's tiny angelic hands reached for mine as he took them

off my face "don't cry I love you and I know you think this is your fault but it's not your the best sister I could ever ask for you really are" he said with tears in his eyes and I knew he meant it.

The doctor came through the door and told me had to prep Sam for surgery I gave him a quick kiss on the forehead and told him everything was going to be alright,I wish I believed it.I stepped outside and to my utter shock standing there with his hazel brown hair and blue eyes and that warm smile was Jake.