All In My Head (GirlxGirls)

"I'm Happy"

My future lover is looking for me in all the wrong places.
Its senior year and I'm so excited. I've finally come out as a lesbian last year, so I feel more like myself and I can finally be happy. I've been single for a year and half and I actually don't mind because the person I actually want is taken by an arrogant bitch. It's my birthday, I asked Ariella did she want to hang with me because I didn't have anyone else to hang out with. Of course Keisha has something that she absolutely needs Ariella. Later that day, Ariella texted me feeling bad about my birthday and I began to feel like everything at this point means nothing because I know her girlfriend won't let me stand 30 feet next her. I spoke to my therapist about Ariella and how I need to tell her how I feel or I'll lose her forever. I need her to know that I'm madly in love with her.
Tweet: I have to tell her but I'm so scared.
Ariella witness my tweet and started to interrogate me about the tweet. I really wanted to keep it to myself but what the hell. What do I have to lose? The friend zone has never felt so weird in my life, but I can't complain I still have my best friend for now.
You are dead to me and I never loved you. Those words never hurt so bad, literally felt my heart shattering. I couldn't even reply back because the fact that I was crying. I guess everyone was right; no one is actually really there for you. Next day, I thought about going to her school and just going off but I already felt like a fool. I keep in my mind that she did what was best for her relationship.
Imagination is the only weapon in the war against reality
I've been such a loner this whole senior year. I only hang out with my best friend Kay every day and just focus on my books that I published. We graduate in 5 weeks and prom is this week too. It's about time, I kind of want to get it over with. Ariella started popping in my head a lot more, I really wanted to know how she was doing. I miss her so much but it is for the best I presume. Prom is finally here but I'm not having a good time at all, I wish Ariella was actually here to be my date. I was really tempted to text her then I felt so stupid for even considering the thought. I was ready to leave until they announced
Prom Queen: Neveah Fox & Prom King: Erin McCall
Oh shit, I yelled and the biggest smile appeared on my face. That was the first time I actually smiled so genuinely in months. Now only four weeks until graduation.