Our Fallout: A Second Chance

Thirty Three

Chapter 33:
Their fallout was their own choice

I lost track of time while having fun with them as I saw the sun was slowly rising. I can feel the heaviness in my eyes watching the fires on our bonfire slowly died.

"Thank you everyone for making our night memorable as we close this chapter in our life." napatingin kami sa pagiging seryoso bigla ni Rachel.

Hindi ko alam kung lasing na ba to o ano. Ang dami niyang nainom!

"And it's sad how we became closer to each other when we're about to end our high school life." malungkot na sabi ni Jasmine. "Who says this is the end? We'll continue this unexpected friendship in our college life too." Sam said with a big smile on her face.

"Oo naman, pero iba kasi pag highschool eh. Sa college may medyo may kanya kanya na tayong buhay. It's not like we'll choose the same course, right?" nabitin sa ere ang ngiti ko dahil sa sinabi ni Jasmine.

She's right. Ang laking panghihinayang kung kailan mas naging malapit kami sa isa't isa, doon pa kami mismo mahihiwahiwalay.

"Anong mga kukunin niyo?" Aaliyah asked with curiosity. "I'll take up law. Wish me luck." Sam said with a heavy sigh. "Engineering." tipid na sabi ni Jasmine. "I'm kinda torn between business and political science." nag iisip na sagot ni Isla.

"Bussiness." sabi ko naman. "Psychology—" I laughed when I heard everyone's violent reaction because of what Rachel said. "Oh? Bakit? Wag kayo matawa tawa dyan! Baka ako magpapamental sainyo." ng mas lalo akong natawa.

"Girl, that's not how it works!" I said almost crying. She always has a way of turning serious conversations to joke time. Pareho sila ni Isla pero mas nakakatawa kay Rachel. "Okay! Sa fashion na lang ako." agad niyang pinalitan at nagtawanan ulit kami.

Ang layo ng psychology sa fashion ha!!

I bet you she's gonna change her mind after a minute. "O kaya subukan ko maging model na lang. What do you think, Kirsten? Bagay ba?" see? and then she tried doing some model poses.  Napailing na lang ako sa pabago bagong isip niya.

She just rolled her eyes on me as she took a shot. Ang lalakas talaga uminom ng mga to.

"Ikaw?" tanong ko kay Ali. "I— uhh..." she tilted her head trying to find some answers. "I'm not sure yet." diretso niya at halos wala ng nag salita.

"It's fine. Don't rush it, babe. It's not like we chose those careers because it's our passion or dreams. Like duhh some are doing it for money like me." Jasmine said trying to give her some comforting words.

"Mahirap talaga ang mabuhay mabuhay sa mundo." Sam dramatically said as she stood up. "Let's call it a night or day! I gave you your hotel keys with you, right?" tanong niya at tumango kami. "Good night then." at umalis na siya.

"She's right. So why live life strictly with rules only? Loosen up a bit and take a risk!" at tumayo na din si Jasmine. Medyo natamaan ako sa sinabi niya.

Why am I making things complicated by being so strict and serious with myself? I'm just eighteen. The start of my lively young adulthood. It's fine to loosen up a bit.

"Are we supposed to say encouraging words before we leave? Those damn smart assholes! I have great wisdom too." pansin ni Rachel na ikinangiti ko.

"You know what, Ali? I-shot mo lang yan! Stop being so denial and start being honest with yourself. Alam mo naman ang gusto mo eh. Takot ka lang. Gaya nga ng sabi ni Jasmine. Take a fucking risk." sabi niya at kinuha pa yung alak habang papasok sa hotel.

Napatingin naman ako kay Ali na mukhang wala sa sariling pinapanood ang mga alon. Natamaan din ata siya sa sinabi ni Rachel.

I looked at Isla when she loudly sighed. "Is it my time to leave now?" tanong niya sa akin. "I realized the past few days that being honest to yourself is one thing you can do to avoid regrets. Just like what Rachel said." nakatingin niyang sabi kay Aaliyah.