No tears left to cry

Break up.

Tw!! Yelling, drinking, smoking and

I woke up around 5am and I really did not want to get up today. For the past week I had been skipping school, throwing up meals after eating them and I had lost a couple pounds, smoking, drinking, self harming and taping my thighs. The bullying continued and it got worse every day to the point I had to turn my comments off and I had to turn my message off on all social media. Obviously no one noticed and Ollie still acted the same with me yk all lovey until today. I stayed in bed and went on my phone and scrolled on instagram.

"Morning pumpkin" dad said coming in

"Morning" i said

"You okay you haven't been acting yourself recently" he asked

"Yeah I'm fine just tired i haven't been sleeping well" I said yawning.

"Okay well I'm going to take cami to school and I have a couple meetings today so Sebastian is coming to sit with you" he said

"Great" I mumbled

"I love you pumpkin" he said

"Love you too dad" I said

He smiled and left and I heard the door then open and close. I got up and then grabbed the alcohol from under my bed and my weed and climbed onto the roof. Dad said seb wasn't coming until 12 ish and it was 8am so I had 4 hours to myself.

I took a mouth full out of the bottle of vodka and then smoked my weed. I sat on the roof for the next 4 hours smoking and drinking until I heard a car door shut. I sighed and climbed back in through my window and then hid my weed and everything under my bed.

I tried making myself look some what normal and I stumbled downstairs. I hadn't showered or changed in about a week so it was bad.

"Woah Morgan slow down are you okay" Sebastian said holding me up since I stumbled around

"I-I'm fine" I said burping

"Have you been drinking?" He asked

"Nooooo" I said

"Morgan you reek of vodka and weed your fucking 15 for fuck sake" he said sitting me down on the couch.

"I'm fine sea bass" I said

He sighed and then made me some food and got me a drink and some medicine. I ate first and then took my medicine.

"What's been going on with you Morgan your dad told me you haven't left your room in days until this morning " he said sitting down and rubbing my back

"I'm fine" I said

"Your obviously not fine morg your struggling so talk to me princess I'm here for you" he said as I rested my head on his chest

"You sure you want everything" I asked

"Would it be better if you wrote it down and then I read it so you don't have to talk about it?" He asked

I nodded and he got up and grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and gave it to me. I began to write down everything and it took a while since a lot had been going on. He then read it and he looked pissed but also upset. I then hugged me really tight.

"I'm so sorry princess" he said softly

"It's fine I've felt with worse " I said sniffling

"True but you need sleep so go upstairs and sleep for a bit" he said kissing my head

I nodded and before I fell asleep I heard my phone ring and I saw it was Ollie. I sighed and answered it.

"Hey" I said sniffling.