Married to Mr.Bieber

Chapter 24.

I heard the door open and expected a nurse to check my vitals, so I ignored it. My mind was running wild with all of the things I have to explain to Justin. All of the things I have to explain to myself. None of this would have happened if I wouldn't have told Beth. I wouldn't be in the hospital bed. We would be happy. My baby would still be growing, developing, getting ready for a journey of years to come. But none of that is how I want it to be because Beth lied.

Beth lied to me. Gave me up all those years ago. Let Aunt Marcy raise me as her own. Talked me into lying to Justin. Made me believe that I was doing the wrong thing by loving him. Made me believe that I was doing the right thing by lying to him about the baby.

If only I would have listened to Selena earlier. If only I would have listened to myself. This is my fault. All my fault.

After minutes of silence, the door closed and I heard heavy steps come towards the bed. I thought it was the nurse, I couldn't have been anymore wrong.

As my eyes adjusted to the harsh lighting I recognized Selena. Her eyes were dark, her face drained. My gaze shifted towards the other body in the room.

It was Justin.

Tears stained his pale face. Bags hung under his eyes, and his hair lay flat against his forehead.

"Carter..." his voice cracked.

Tears sprung to my eyes at the broken voice I heard. I broke him; that was me who made him cry. That was me who killed our baby. Then more tears spilled down my cheeks onto the hospital gown. This jsut brings a whole new level to the word broken. A broken heart isn't like a toy that you can slap duct tape to and say 'fixed'. A broken heart is much like a broken arm. The healing process is long, but necessary, painful, but rewarding. The only difference between a broken arm, and a broken heart is that a broken heart is much deeper. A broken heart takes so much more time to heal and mend and finally let go...

I licked my dry lips and spoke. Shakily, but I spoke. "Justin...I-I.."

His fist clenched. "Don't you dare say you can explain. I've heard it all b-before Carter. What I want is the truth." all of a sudden, that broken Justin seemed to step into the hallway. This Justin was so determined to get answers.

Selena placed a hand on Justin's shoulder. "Justin..."

I stopped her from going any farther. "No. He's right. He deserves to know the truth."

She gave me a weak smile and left the room. Once the door closed Justin sighed. "So. What is the truth, Carter?"

"That morning you came down stairs and tired to apologize I went for Starbucks and ran into Beth." He nodded. "We sat and talked for a while. Once we got on the subject of you, she was asking me about school, and everything. I let it slip. She made a complete ass out of herself complaining that I am too young, and so forth."

"You let what slip?" 

My eyes fell. "The doctor didn't tell you?" 

Tears spilled from his eyes. "So you really were pregnant? Why didn't you tell me! Carter, this makes no sense. I would have been....Why.." he took a seat beside the bed and his face landed in his hands. 

-FlashBack-

"I think we should name her Jazmyn."  Erin said holding the new edition into the Bieber family. Justin smiled so big as he took his new baby sister into his arms. 

He smiled down at the new born baby girl and a tear slipped down his cheek when she opened her big blue eyes. Justin was the first person she saw. "Welcome to the world Jazzy."  the feeling of holding such a new and innocent human in his arms gave Justin such an overwhelming feeling of love and pride. He vowed he was going to make sure his baby sister was safe until she was ready to go off on her own.