State of Mind(HIATUS.4.S2)

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Anne's POV:

I was uncomfortable all night, I couldn't sleep, I drifted but I never act fell asleep till it was early in the morning I finally fell asleep
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I think ..I was supposed to be looking for something ..someone...

Oh yeah! Marcy!

We got separated while on a walk and I'm now on the street looking for her

"pspsps here kitty"

Finally i found her! i quickly shot Sasha a text saying i found her and ran to catch up, she was at the end of the street under a lamp post petting a cat, at first it looked norml but i realized that her hand was around its neck and she was strangling it, it struggled but she just wouldnt let go

"Marcy!! Stop! MArcy! WHAT THE HELL-"

i finally got cought up enough and i was too late, the cat was gone and stopped moving, it looked just like Domino and i felt anger as well as confusion, Why?

"Marcy what the hell did you d-"

When i grabbed her shoulder and spun her around, her eyes glew orange with yellow pupils, the grin on her face was menacing and creepy, i got shivers all down my spine and i slowly backed up

"..Marcy?"

"Hahaha...Hahah! Im sorry! Marcy isnt here right now. would you like to leave a message??"
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"GAAASP"

I Shot up in bed with sweat rolling down my my face and dampening back, My heart raced and I looked around searching my surrounding, my eyes focused and I remembered I was in the guest room

I sat up and leaned against the wall holding my head and rubbing my eyes. This whole mess is getting to me

It was just a dream. They're good now. They're not- like they used to be at least, they'd till have an attitude tho.

What am I going to do? How am I going to tap into my powers, My calamity powers let alone the Calamity God powers.

I rub my eyes and breathe, I get up to go and get some water and turned on the kitchen lights on dim, Leaning against the counter I contemplate on this whole situation

It's got me thinking alot, I have to be more rational and logical about this but my emotions are getting in the way.

I put in my earbuds and listened to some music and tried to think of other things but the dream was stuck playing in my head, my fear of them being behind me right now sent chills down my back

How do I get passed this??? These emotions need to be handled or I won't be able to function properly

How did I do this last time???

"Give him back.....GIVE HIM. BACK!."

My heart raced remembering that day, When Sprig was dropped out the window. How I felt a surge through my body like a whole truck load of adrenaline filled my body as well as the pain

Something in me told me to keep thinking of when I used my powers, Maybe it was a sign or just me trying to torture myself but I did it

I got a similar sense to when I think I first started turning on my powers I don't know but the feeling of my heart dropping and my muscles tightening but the feeling of adrenaline filled me

It was a split second tho that I felt it, maybe that's what I need to do, Remember all the hurt and focus on what could trigger it, meditate on the wisdom that was spread to me.

I took out my earbuds, turned off my music and finished my water, it was around 5:37 and I sat on the couch and breathed

Don't get me wrong I'm tired as hell I just, I need to do this