𝐂𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐫 𝐈 𝐆𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐘𝐨𝐮

is she the reason?

The day after Kelly's drunken confession, Beyoncé couldn't find herself to get out of bed. She was upset. Upset with herself for rejecting Kelly, upset with Kelly for how she took the rejection, and upset with how everything turned out. It all could've been so different.

She was thinking about all the scenarios of what could've happened if that one thing didn't happen. She wondered if she said yes to Kelly, would her and Robyn be as close as they were now?

And she wondered if going to the dance with Robyn was the glue that stuck them together. They had been inseparable since. She couldn't help but think that Kelly could've easily been apart of that glue.

Kelly thought Beyoncé was passed out because she was hungover. But after a whole day went by, she got a little worried. She called her name, made breakfast because Beyoncé would usually jump out of her sleep to the smell of food, and even shook her to see if she was still alive.

She's never seen Beyoncé in this state so she wasn't sure how she was supposed to handle it. She couldn't help but feel like it was because of her. Before she got shitfaced the other night, the twins had said some mean things to her and she never came back.

She wasn't even sure how she got home because she was sure Beyoncé ditched her for the night. She completely understood though. She wouldn't want to be around that negative energy either.

But the twins said that they would be nice to Beyoncé from now on, she only hoped that they'd live up to it.

Beyoncé still hasn't got out of bed and the sun was starting to go down. Kelly was nervous and scared because this was the second day she's been like this.

She hasn't even repositioned herself. She's literally been in the same spot since she woke up.

There was a knock on the door and she hurried to go answer. The only person that ever came over here was Robyn so she knew it was her. She was thankful for it though because she had no idea where her dorm room was and her next resort was finding someone to come help.

She opened the door and let her inside. If anyone knew how to deal with this, it would be her.

"She hasn't gotten out of bed all day" Kelly said informing Robyn.

"I can see that, but thanks for filling me in" Robyn responded not so nicely. Kelly didn't care about her tone, she just wanted Beyoncé to get better.

Beyoncé had no energy to say what she would normally say to Robyn for being so rude. Robyn furrowed her eyebrows. She was sure that comment would get her to say something.

"Damn you not even gonna tell me to be nice or nothing. What's wrong babe? Talk to me" Robyn said to her. When she got no response she tried lifting the covers off but they wouldn't budge. "Did you glue this shit to your body or something? I know you ain't this strong"

"Go away" Beyoncé mumbled.

"And she speaks!" Robyn dramatically spoke.

Who was she kidding? There was no way she could avoid Robyn for this long. She would always find a way to get through to her and soften her up a bit.

Robyn sat on the edge of the bed and rubbed her hand up her thigh.

"I'll uh.. I'll give you guys some privacy" Kelly cleared her throat while walking out of the room.

Beyoncé threw the covers off her head and looked down at where Robyn's hands were. She groaned loudly and threw herself back in bed.

She just now noticed that Kelly always leaves the room whenever Robyn was touching her. Something tells Beyoncé that Kelly might still have a thing for her.

Either that, or being around Robyn was a trigger for her. She wanted to be more mindful and considerate of her feelings but she didn't know how without raising any red flags towards Robyn.

She hadn't talked to Kelly about it yet. She was scared. Scared that she'd deny it. Scared that it was only drunk Kelly who was able to be honest and open with her.

"Are you still upset about what those girls said about you at the party?" Robyn asked. "Don't even worry about that shit, B. I got them good. They won't be saying nothing about you no more"

Beyoncé slid her covers down just below her eyes. "You killed them?"

Robyn chuckled a smile, Beyoncé couldn't help but smile with her.

"How'd you know who it was?" Beyoncé asked sitting up.

Robyn sucked her tooth. "Tsk. Them loud mouth ass twins always got somebody's name in they mouth. As soon as I saw them I knew it had to have been them"

Beyoncé cheesed. "Now I wanna know what you did"

"Nah. I want you to remember me as sweet Robyn, so I'll save that story for another day" she smirked.

"Sweet Robyn?" Beyoncé laughed. "I don't know about all that"

"What?!" She gasped dramatically. "I'm not sweet? Even after I put this pretty ass smile on your face?" Robyn smiled while lifting Beyoncé's chin, slowly revealing her rosy cheeks from the comment.

Beyoncé playfully rolled her eyes. "I guess you can be sweet sometimes"

"I'll take sometimes" she said holding eyes with her.

"Thank you for getting me out of this slump" Beyoncé said pulling her in for a hug. Robyn held her tight and was slow to let go. Her eyes bounced from her eyes and lips, silently admiring the girl in front of her.

"As beautiful as you are natural, you look hit right now. Go freshen up babe. Let's go grab something to eat, I know you hungry"

Robyn was reading her mind. She was starving. She hasn't eaten in two days so she was in dire need of a full course meal.

By the time they came back it was late. Beyoncé yawned as she walked inside, plopping down face first on her bed.

Kelly put her homework aside and looked over at her. She was glad that Robyn was able to get her out of her slump but she couldn't help but wonder if she was the reason for it. She remembers the twins saying something about her at the party, but not much after that. Did she get drunk and say mean things too?

"Hey.. um," Kelly started out. "I'm glad your feeling better"

Beyoncé propped herself up with her elbows. "Yea I was just tired I guess" she said downplaying it.

Kelly scratched the back of her head and cleared her throat. "Was I.. mean to you the night of the party? If I said anything to upset you, I'm sorry"

Beyoncé relaxed her face seeing that Kelly was nervous.

"No. You didn't say anything to upset me" Beyoncé reassured her.

"I know the twins said that I said you got chlamydia after losing your virginity, but I didn't. They just got you mixed up with someone else"

Beyoncé sighed, letting her elbows fall and turned to look up at the ceiling.

"I'm a virgin, actually" she said still staring at the ceiling. "Never been touched"

Beyoncé was the type to admire someone from afar. She never spoke up about her feelings or expressed them to someone she was interested in. She was shy. Robyn was the complete opposite of her. She loved watching her work her magic with the girls. She wish she had that same charm.

"Same" Kelly said lowly after a few seconds of silence. Beyoncé found her eyes. Kelly was with her boyfriend for so long she just assumed that they had already shared intimate moments together.

"You ever wonder what it's like?" Beyoncé asked.

"Magical" Kelly smiled, Beyoncé smiled at her response. "With the right person of course" she added while keeping her eyes on Beyoncé.

Beyoncé leaned against her pillow, feeling her cheeks flush. She wondered who Kelly thought her right person was. Beyoncé closed her eyes and imagined who that person could be for her. But all she could see was Kelly.